Cinta Ini Membunuhku

I feel sad, i feel empty, i felt bad, i am reminiscencing, and the 1st August 2008's night is on my mind now, the way i cried, the way i woke up in the middle of the night for upteen times, the way i hoped to recieve your text or rather call.

I felt stupid, i felt useless, i felt nothing at that point, i'm such a failure in everything.
I was hoping, praying, that night can be erased from my mind, but it just can't be erased, reason is because, this is really hurtful.

I felt loved sometimes, but sometimes i don't, maybe i'm too sensative, maybe i've got something wrong in my mind, maybe i'm really unloved.

I got no idea what to blog, and i felt so i-don't-know-how-to-explain ah. :(

So many pair of eyes are reading my blog, and You are one of 'em, if You are unhappy with my post, don't need to tell Him/Her that You are unhappy with my post, and You expects Me to delete it. Alright, i'm just ranting, hope that there's no such people lah, :)

Alright, i got no mood already, and i shall skip my Dinner tonight, :) Let's reminiscence and cry our heart out, nah, kidding. So sentimental man, rofl.

I shall stop here, will be online around 8? I don't know, i need to relax now. Okay, bye.

Edited @ 9.45pm. :)

I'm blogging here again, for the 3rd time. :) Im feeling better, but not for my fcvking gastric, -_- And, i don't feel hungry after my Macflurry this afternoon at Amk hub man, :O

I think my stomach got problem, ha ha. But who cares huh? The ones who are supposed to care, didn't cared. The ones who are not supposed to care, jiu pian pian care, wtf. -_- Stupid sia, no logic man, lol. Ha ha, okay lah, bestie said he will be online at 9.30pm, and guess what? Now is 9.48pm yet he's not online yet, yawns. Zzzz, im so sleepy man, rofl.

I don't feel like doing my Art, don't feel like working tomorrow, like what bestie said, lazy. I don't feel like staying alive, im so picky, im so in love with you yet, i can't have you. Cinta ini membunuhku, seriously. :(

I: I'm fine already, yes i am. :)
TYR: Thanks.