Hi, time check, 11.26pm. :) Its not 12am yet, ha-ha. Alright, no pictures for today cause i'm using my Brother's laptop, my laptop is down, so i doubt i'm going to update that often like i use to already, cause of various reasons.

No laptop is the first thing, save time is the 2nd thing, study Social studies, chapter 4,5,6 of Sec 3 textbook is the 3rd thing. One last thing, is to avoid everything that can make me upset. :( Well, my days suck, to the core. :/

Imma elaborate from Wednesday alright, apparently, i'm gonna summarize it, l-o-l. Didn't want to go to school, but Someone texted me on Tuesday night to ask me to be present for school. :/ Sigh, life is hard man. Wednesday didn't rained, so went to school by myself instead taking mom's ride to school with brothers. Had Fast, wednesday apparently went well, there was photo-taking too, had fun lah, ha ha.

Stayed back, Someone had Oral, Michelle told me that she saw Someone, so i went down, had h2h talk with Someone at the classroom block, apparently talking about what had happen on Tuesday lah, it was a total disaster man, :/ Then talk till about 5+, i went to Artroon and packed my stuffs while Someone went to Canteen and met up with friends and also waiting for me, then walked to 190 bustop, missed 5 of 190 bus, hope its worthwhile, seriously.. :/ Wednesday was okay, while, i had fun going back with Someone! Hehe!

Thursday, suck to the max, absent from Star, headed to Pending to meet Ari with Sera, Michelle and Fadhila. Was super shag, first we walked down to AES, then 171 to Pending, waited for like 30 minutes for Him, zzz. Teck Whye is like Toa Payoh lohz, ha ha ha! Then Kak Fieza and Emmabel was in the detention room, as well as Someone. :/ Then headed back to school with my heart sanking, then first thing is to peek thru the detention room. Didn't see Fieza and Emmabel, but i saw Someone, and this Someone gave me a stupid-cute face, roflz.

Talked, went to canteen for awhile, then headed to Artroom and finish up my Bird. :) Then texted Someone, and Someone called, so went down, make Someone stayed back, ha ha ha! :P Then did work outside Artroom, was chit-chatting lah, i can't concerntrate, and yeah, you know i know lah. Anyway, Michelle was there okay, rofl. Then after that left the school around 6pm (?)

Walked back with Someone (!) Then suppose to walk with Sera, Arian and Emmabel, but at second thought, me and Someone left first, sorry dearest Sera! :( Then again, headed to 190 bustop, damn l-o-l lah Someone, ha ha. Then Someone board bus then i walked home. Thursday was okay, obstacles are around us, we're gonna face it bravely, yeah ladies? :)

Friday, was okay, lessons was alright, Mr Han didn't scold me today! Hahaha, sibeh proud yi xia you mei you~ Ha, then i ate during recess today, yessah? Then headed to Artroom from 11.35 to 6pm. :/ I was 70% happy today, the rest, which is 30% was of course, my bad. :( Was kept worried by looking at Bestfriend's sulky face, didn'y manage to stop myself from going down to pujok him, so i went, although my deadline was at 5pm when its like 2+ and i'm still left with 2 birds, r-o-f-l.

Headed to canteen, didn't talk much cause there were peoples there, so i went up to Artroom, tried very mothafucking hard to concentrate, and heng, i can ah, -.- Then was also texting, and when i saw the explanation, my heart sanked, it sanked till the limit that it can't be sanked any furtherrrrrrrrrr. :@ Left school around 6+ with Sri and Jiawei, was silent all the way, reason is because i-missed-you. :(

reached home, bath, stone, watch Dvd, XiaoQuill. Then slept on the sofa, was damn shag. Texting, i was angry and sad at that point of time, so sorrrry You-know-who! :(

Now is 11.55pm, tomorrow is 1st August, thought back, 1st Aug was like a very scary day for me, but i'm happy that i'm over him like months ago, and in a blink of an eye, 1 year is wasted, i wasted my time on letter writtings, cryings, everything. -.- But its over already, no use talking about it. :/

Today's 30% goes to You, think back, i was wondering, what's actually on your mind, what do you want?
Please make up your mind, don't hurt people any further, and i don't wanna use my last straw. :/

Was super into You Belong With Me - Hey Monday. Hearing that song makes me think of HAHA! Kamilah was telling me, i'm like Taylor, while You're that one, and You're that one. Rofl. Well, whatever lah, its just a song, nothing's going right for me now, eeeew, life sucks now, grossszsx. :/

You're making me hate 22 more, but now, i'm gonna make myself to not hate it, and trust me, 22 use to be my favourite number, when You asked for my favourite number, i was speechless, cause my favourite number brings bad memories, and yes, i don't want you to be part of my bad memories, you know?

Holy, now is 12.03am, Happy 1st August everyone, enjoy? Im working tomorrow, with Vivien! And sian, i've got to work on Sunday too, suck. Hais, fuck life lah, cb!

Tell me what's life, define it for me, my life suck to the max, stress, stress, stress.

I seriously miss you alot, the feeling is getting deeper and deeper each day, each minute, i hate this, i hate one-sided stuffs, oh please, god, make me stronger, cause i ain't gonna ask you to make my life easier. Life's a bitch, gotta rush my Art, :/

I won't be updating that often already, few times a week? I don't know, but why do you bother? Fuck ah, cb. I feel so empty now, i feel like scolding vulgarities now, knnbccb, cbkia, pubor, puabye. Hais, i hate heartbreakers ttm.

Im the one who was there for You, for the past few days.
I know your dreams, i know your dislikes and likes.
I know you love girls with long hairs.
Childrens is your love and you love them ttm.
You wished you had a sister, but too bad, you don't have one.
I know you love Akon although you told me that Akon suck, rofl.
I know, i love you, and like hello, i know its a must for me to move on without you. :/
Don't promise, don't compromise, cause you will never know whether can you do it.

I don't want Monday to come, grrrrrrrr. :/ Yes or No? Yes? No? Fuck, NO LA!

Won't be updating already til further notice.
Laptop spolit, okay, bye earthlings! :)

im at the school's artroom now, i left my work at home, so i'm going home later to get it and then back to schl. Im currently feeling very down, i hadn't ate anything since the bread i ate while i'm on my way to school. I skipped meals, during recess to settle something.

Expected something goood, but i'm wrong, i broke down.

Gundu, why am i not moving on? Yes, my fault!

:(

Edited at 8.09pm.

Hi, i'm back, no pictures for today, its gonna be a wordy post for tonight, i won't mind if you wanna leave, cause i'm numb already. :)

Today school was okay, woke up at 6.30am, bathed, went out at 6.50am, 184 to Assumption bustop, walked up with Fadhila, then reached, bought Mineral water, then headed to Parade Sq for morning assembly, (aw, i missed it!)

Then temperature taking, god, my temperature was 37.6 degree celcius, Sera was laughing at me, damn her. :@ Then went back class, had Mother Tongue 1st period, and yes, Ying, Vivien and Cheryl is here, and Tina's not gonna be lonely already, yay. :) Then had English, didn't do work, slept after fooling around, went to class late, hek hek. Woke up, asked Mrs Kalai to help me tie Scorpion. :) Then headed to Miss Alice's room for Math.

Didn't did any work, chit-chatting with Kak Fieza, hand-drawing is fun, :) Then recess time..

Headed to Canteen, then Huzai called me, had a talk, left 'em with ignorance, shall not talk about it, so, skip it. ;)

Had Geog, can't study at all, but i manage to finish 2 questions, then left for Art room, someone walked past, i admit, i took a glance at him, i knew someone was looking at me too, all-the-while, but i looked away, the heartache was definately very hurtful, :'(

Went to canteen, then walk around the school, had a talk with Farris, then headed back to Art room, sat beside Hadi cat, seeing him and fieza, i felt happy for them, although i never ever tasted the feeling of being in a relationship. :/ But anyway, like what Hadi cat said, If You're Not Ready, Don't Be In A Relationship.

Went for S.T.A.R, slept half-way, haiz, it was raining very heavily, very cold too, then headed to Hall and watch STOMP! Then left school with Aryna. Walked to Pending, while i go home.

Reached home, bath, ate dinner (yay), online, msn.

I never move on, my fault.
Friends quarrel, my fault.
My whinings, your fustrations, my fault.
I'm sorry, i just can't move on, :(

If i am able to control my heart, if i am able to to stop myself from falling in love with you, if i am able to be optimistic, nothing will happen, i feel so sad, so bad, so upset, so useless, such a bitch, i'm such a jinx, so bodoh, so idiotic.

If i'm able to turn back time, if i'm able to predict the future, trust me, i'll be better off.

I will control my heart, stop myself from falling in love.
I will be able to be optimistic, able to stop everything from happening.
I will be better off, happy. But its so impossible.

Don't ask me to cheer up, i want to move on, but its hard you know?
You want me to move on, i need new option, i need time.
Don't expect me to be like girls outside, those who can move on so easily.

I can love faithfully, i can wait, i can forgive easily.
I can be the best to You, i can be absolutely patient.
I only trust the only You, and i respect Your decision.
I want the best for You, and i want You to be happy.

I need understanding, time, more love, home is a haunting place, school too.

Tell me, where can i go? Sometimes, i find living useless, i just felt like ending it.
I'm having a hard time, i will be grumpy for the most of the time.
Don't be surprise if i were to ignore/shout/diao you, cause i think, nobody deserves my kind-side except my true-friends. :)

Do forgive me for my wrong-doings, cause i don't mean it, i just felt being heartless.
Tomorrow is Tuesday, another hard day waiting for me to be suffered. :'(

Goodbye people, takecare.

Eh, hi! ^^ I got so hyper-ed after listening to Apple Of My Eye! Ha ha, "you're so dear!" Lol, okay, stop it. Rofl, anyway, today was a boring day for i. :'(

Was on Tagged.com, Friendster.com, Facebook.com and Msn for the whole after-noon, i totally neglected my Art man, shit thing!! :@ And, i was kinda pissed with the internet, i feel like beating up my laptop, lololololol! Ha ha, but i didn't lah, i off-ed it and on it again, rofl.

Fadhila called, h2h talk, then hang up. Had my dinner, and i'm god damn fucking happy. Cause i was asking myself, when is the last time since i had my 2nd meal? Haha, sooooo, be proud of me, hope i can stay likethat for permant-ly, so you people don't spoil my mood, ha ha ha.

Anyway, my brother is into Naruto, wtffffffuck!? Naruto nice mehz? Even Farris was into it too, ohmygod, really that nice meh? Maybe i should try watching it? No, i'm kidding, ha ha!

Well, i'm into STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE. YAY? Let you see, she's freaking cute ok! Haha.

Cute boh, hek hek hek! Anyway, i got pictures to upload, but i'm kinda lazy, should i? should i? Alright, i should, hahahahhaa? Lol, siao. Those pictures were taken on Rena's 16th! So, ha ha, i will upload then. =)

Tomorrow is Monday, i've been waiting and also hoping that time was travel slower. Look, i'm such a big-time egoist. :( I want, and i'm scared too. :/ Hais, what's with me man? I doubt i can sleep tonight, let's pray for the best then? :) I'm scared, no i'm not. Yes i am, very very scared.

AHYA, WHATEVER MAN, HOLY SHIT, JUST FACE IT LA ASSHOLE! :@ Humji emily, lol... Siao liao, i talking to myself againnnnnnnnnnzsx.

I'm on Msn with Suhaimi now, he forgot how to upload pictures on Facebook, ha ha ha!!
And, one more funny thing, i also forgot how to upload, LOL.
I'm on facebook too, commenting on Leslie's wall thru and forth, he got horns on his forehead, ha ha ha!
Okay lah, i laughed too much, i need to chill nowwww.

Bye earthlings, enjoy your last bits of Sunday. :-)

Hello readers, it 12.57pm now, and i didn't went for work as i pulled a long face this morning to Mom, i cham-xiong with my Dad last night, telling him that i only want to work once a week, as prelims and stuffs are coming, and he've yet gave me an answer, D:

Mom said that if i were to stay at home, i'll be infront of my laptop and not studying, gosh. I think she's right, haizsxz. :( I must mug already seriously, no joke bitches.

I'm currently working on my Coursework, sibeh fucked-up, cause the colour paper is so fragile lah, wahpiang. Haiz, and i'm god damn hungry, i haven't eat since yesterday's meal at Mac ; Bpp. I want to eat, but lazy to cook, rofl. :P

Oh yeah, i got few pictures to show to you'all, as i wanna make my post much interesting yeh. Ha ha, see i so good right? :] Ha ha, so here you go then, but before that, please tag me alright? :(






Me and Fadhila the bird. :-)
Me and Shakir tha handsome. xD
Michelle, Fana, Mdm Fat, Me, Fieza, Fadhila, Aryna and Kamilah! (luvvv)
Press on the screenshot, i effing love the result, and its surprisingly true! x)
Damn, this joke made me laughed for like few seconds, ha ha! LOL.

Alright, im done with the pictures, and anyway, i quit using Picnik already, it suck 2themax. I downloaded some editting programme, and i'm happy with it, rofl. -_- Okay, i'm being lame here, ha ha. But who cares man? ~.~ > Bestf's emotion, LOL.

Oh yeah, tomorrow is Monday, i want Yingying, Cheryl, Vivien to come to school, wanna scold them, nah, kidding. Ha ha ha! :P

Okay, well, i think i want to burn all those letters that i wrote to Nelson last time, as i find it very hurting when i see all those letters inside my cabinet, :/ And, i will always end up emo-ing like a bitch after reading those letters, so should i burn it or keep it? Okay lah, ciaos!

Say you're sorry.

Hi everyone, time check, 9.26pm. Well, didn't wanted to go home just now, but i've got no choice to, so i went home alone. ;( Alright, skip this part lah, shall elaborate my day yeah.

The day at Timah was fun, and also kinda make me-miss-my-ultra-pasts. Stayed till 4.50pm, left, 75 home, reached home, mom, and brothers were at home. Bathed, chit-chat, left home around again 5.30pm, 960 to Bpp, headed to LongJohn with Michelle.

Saw Xin, Ning, En, Miko, Auntie Amy and Aunt concidentally. :) Felt happy too see 'em, its been such a long time since i see them! Then Akif and Fana was there, talked for-awhile, headed to Garden Plaza.

Watch STOMP!'s performance, was nice, and Aryna was there!! Shook hands, took pictures, laughed, chocolate time, coca, praising the guys that they were hawt, ^^

Left for Toilet, took pictures, left for Mac for my dinner, then went back to Garden Plaza, slacked around the Playground with Michelle, Fieza, Suhaimi and Ahmad, took pictures, had lots of fun. Then headed to join the STOMP! members, took pictures again!

Mdm Fat joined us, was fun, as usual~ Then STOMP! left for school, while me, Michelle, Fieza, Suhaimi, Ahmad, Akif and Fana left for underblock, Akif and Fana left us to i-don't-know-where, while the rest of us played Truth Or Dare, and i didn't got to play, cause never point me, ha ha. Heng man~

Left for Mac again, slacked, and i didn't want to go home, haiz. Then the thought of someone, and my brothers, i forced myself to go home, zzz. 960 home, alot of things are inside my mind now, grah. :@

Im at home, today is Saturday, tomorrow is Sunday, gonna head down to Timah again, then Monday is here, again. :(

Pictures will be edited and posted soon, i will edit tonight and hopefully, i'll post it later on. The picture on top is my favourite! HA HA, I SO LOVE ARYNA! (L)

Alright, im having problems, so ciao for now! Byeeeeeeeeeez.

Time check, 11.11pm! (Ohmygawd, i miss Baby!!)

I've already edited all tha pictures, here you go readers. :)
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From left to right, left to right, :)

Me and Aryna Girlfriend! :)
Me and Farris Naruto-Suck! :)
Me and Izzuan, 3 years mate! :)
Me and Kak fieza, (Favourite!) :D
Me and Michelle! :)
Kak Fieza, Me and Michelle! :)
Kak fieza, Me, Ahmad and Michelle! xD
Ahmad, Kak Fieza, Suhaimi and Me! :B
Kak Fieza and Me again! (I love her!!)
Fadhila, Kak Fieza, Aryna Girlfriend and Me! (Love.)
Kamilah and Me! xD
Fana, Me and Shakir! :P

I still got somemore, but malas ah, nk edit then post, haiz. Lol, blame it on my laziness bitch. ha ha! Lol, its in the genes, :P Soo, i've decided, stay optimistic yeh, ha ha! :P

Okay lah, one last thing to say! :D

My one male bestie is Hazmi!

And i love my bestie alot! :D

Okay, ciao, bye! :)

Time check : 10.04am. Gotta leave house at 10.50am. So imma make use the time wisely. Currently on Msn with Angelo who is down with fever for 1 week, Aryna who just ended her so-many-day's Mc today, and Krystal who just recovered from her Fever.

I'm working till 5pm today, and after that, gonna head to Bpp to meet Shell and Fana for Montage 09. School's STOMP! will be performing, so i'll be there to watch 'em performing! Hope i won't see some fucking ignorant people, ha ha. :P

Alright, i'm god damn lazy for work lah, but i've got to go and work, :/ And, anyway, i'm not working at Whampoa already, i'm helping out at my Grandpa's stall, Mr Fadzil's fav. Ha ha ha!

My dog has been crying since my family went out at 10.04am, gawd, why is he so sentimental?
Milo, dont cry man, go drink milo! Ha ha ha ha ha, roflz.

My fucking wireless simply suck to the max, cb. -_- Stop disconnecting bitch! Pubor, let me use for awhile also cannot ah? Your mother swine.

Im such a bitch, rofl? > Okay, random. Yeah, i was on Facebook just now, and guess what! Facebook has alot of sick guys, and i encountered one, yesterday.

His name is Tony. He got no pictures on his Fb. And, he attack girls, he will start a convo with you, saying hi, asking whether can he fuck you, asking whether can he hug you etc. And i tell you, i was god damn fucking irritated by it and i asked him to add my msn, at first he dont dare, then in the end, he added. Then me and sri disiao him, he humji he left the convo. I got you-know-who to help, and he is god damn funny, rofl. Well, in the end, the Tony never contact me already.

I think he added Yimling too, god. Yimling, good lucks. Ha, alright, i'm on Msn with LakSa now. And, i'm really unwell, my Mens is here, eeeeeeeeew.

I feel like doing my eeeeee in my high pitch voice now, ever since last night when i was on Msn with my Bestf.

I'm still upset siah, haiz, i need to brace up. Give me a chill pill, ha ha. Okay lah, i shall stop here, toodles~

I miss you, seriously! :'(

Reminiscencing.

Remember the first day when i first talked to you in the canteen?

Remember the first time when i cut your queue during recess?

Remember the time when we started to call each other pig/pork?

Remember our first smile to each other?

Remember the first time you called me using your house number?

Remember that you mocked at me in the SRC?

Remember the first quarrel we had over her?

We apologized and we compromised to be there for each other.

Remember the day at Amk Hub?

We had butterflies although we tried to hide.

Remember the very first and the last time when we walked back together?

Remember the last time when we talk like we use to?

Remember the very day during June Holiday?

We were both nervous, and we still ended with a smile on our face.

Remember how i mocked at your reaction while you're having your Mcspicy?

Remember the first cold-war we had just a few days ago?

Remember my happy face which you can always see last time?

Remember the time when we so happy.

Remember the day when we regarded each-other as bestfriends.

Remember those funny msn conversations.

Remember your wine selling for $5 to me.

Remember that i was asking you to cook for me as i havent had my dinner.

I was reminiscencing, don't mind me. I hate reminiscencing, as it makes me unable to sleep at night. I saw Her blog, i went blank, i started to ask questions, weird ones. And, i think im going to have a hard time sleeping tonight.

I will never hate you for long, cause i will never have a heart to.

I will make the effort to know you better, so that i can be more understanding.

I will make this friendship between us last, and i promise you.

What does friendship needs to make it last? When it comes to Bestfriend-ships, it changes.

Bestfriends stay true to each other.

Bestfriends stay with them always.

Bestfriends will always treat the bestfriend the best while they partner comes 2nd. (for me)

Bestfriends will be always appreciated, and also always forgiven.

Bestfriends will always be there, no matter what.

8 numbers away, i'll be here for you.

Fana, Vivien, Jeanne, Joyce, Hazmi, i love you all.

You're the reason.

Alright, hi readers. School was overall suckish, cause i hate school. :P Woke up at 6.30am, as i slept at 3am last night, i can't sleep, and i thank god, i tolerated. And, i dreamt of You, and i knew, the dream was a happy one. But you know, the fact is that its impossible, as i said, dream.

184 to Assumption bustop, was drizzling, reached bustop, shooked hands, left for school alone. Reached canteen, stoned, people came, help Fieza tied her hair, left for class. Temperature was 37.4 celcius, god damn it, i'm shocked. Then had Chemistry, slept. Math, did worksheet, started to talk as i didn't even utter a word since i woke up. Physics was okay, starting to cheer up.. :')

Recess was dreadful, time passes so slow so slow, didn't ate, gave it a pass, talked with Tina and Jason. Bought GreenTea, Billy Gun was behind me and he said to the uncle that he wants "Milo dog." Cause my dog's name was Milo. -_- Then went to Jason's class, then went back to class. Had Chemistry again, and this time, i wasn't asleep but worrying to death.

Bell rang, Sri was waiting for me outside, and of course, i acted to be ultra fucking cb happy. :/ Then headed to the scary place, the place where i'm most afraid of, the place when it hurts me deep down, waited for Irene for like 10 minutes.

You guys might be wondering why i went to met her, please get it right, she wanted to meet me first, and i heard from Sri that she called Sri while she's in tears, telling her how sad was she for the outcome after being together with my Bestf. She still said that Irene wants to talk to me regarding to our friendship and hope that we can still be friends. So i listened to Sri, i actually don't even feel like talking to her, but after talking with Fadhila, Fana, Sri, Aslina, Fieza, Sera, Farris, i decided to just go and settle it.

So i went, Sera was with me, but you know what? She didn't turned up, -_- Then we headed to canteen, and, we saw her hiding away from me and Sera with Kathie. I was like -_-" Then went to canteen, called Kathie, met 'em outside Science lab. And, i was totally pissed, she make me looked like a fool, she fooled me, she hurt me again, i'm speechless! I was talking all the while, so as to not make myself look like a fool, i know, Sera was pissed too, and i promised her not to cry. I need time, please. I need time to accept this fact, takecare!

Went to Artroom, put bags down, Mdm Fat drove me, Sera, Inia and Aisyah to Bpp for lunch. Then reached school around 2pm+. Did work. Laughed, did stupid stuffs, joked. And like what Michelle said, its been a long time since i was these happy during Art. And, i noticed that too..

Left school with Kamilah and Alastair. Alastair make me feel like crying, but i know he was saying all these for my own good. Yes, i'm sure he won't make a good choice, but i'm also sure that i can prove to people that he is worth waiting. Yes, what for to wait when i treats him so good while he treats me like ..... I totally agree with you, but i need time, i seriously need time.

It affects my Art, its pulling me down, my Art is due on Next week, and guess what? Its not even fucking ready. And, i'm very very stress now. I've gotta work tomorrow, and as well as Sunday. Cool or what? Great, N level is coming in less than a month, Prelims are coming in 2 weeks time. God, please kill me now, grah. :@

I'm feeling really loved during all these times, i was crying, and crying, whining, vomitting, and you people never failed to ask me how am i, what happen, asking me to cheer up. And, this are my dedications. :) Not by order, as all is the same, and all treats me well. :D

Fana darling, thanks so much girl, i know you will be there for me, thanks so much, really. I appreciate you and i know you just want the best for me, please give me time, i need time. :') I love you Fana! (:

Fadhila Nanos, i know you can't read, but i will let you read soon, ha-ha. You gave the best advice, your method works for me, you wants the best for me, you don't like to see me cry, and i thank you for that, dearest Fadhila. Luv ya.

Kak Fieza, kak, thanks. I know you will not give up on me, i know no matter what you wil be there for me, you've been there to comfort me, no matter thru msn or realife, and i appreciate it much, thanks so much, i love you.

Sera! This mamatan of yours love you so much! Thanks so much, and we shall stand side by side together alright? Thanks for being there, thanks for making me promise for not being a weakling. Thanks so much, i love you.

Sri Bestie, i didn't thought that because of me you will hate Irene, but you see, this is mankind. Life is like that, lies is around us, and i know, you wants the best for me, you've known me for 3 years, and seriously, although i sometimes merajuk with you smoking, but its for you own good like how you want me to be happy. Thanks so much, i know you'll be there, thanks so much Bestie.

Bestf, i know you won't read this. You're belonging to someone now, and i am numb. Look, as long as you're happy, i'm fine with it. Anything, can come and talk to me, i will be there for you like how you do to me. ^^

Aslina, Michelle, Farris, Alson, Ahmad, Akif, Shakir, Kamilah, Suhaimi, Hadi, Tina, Jiawei, Alastair, Aryna, Lingsheng, Idris & Huzaifah. :-)

Thanks so much humans, i appreciate your helps, thanks so much for all the meaningful words, thanks so much for being there whenever i needs someone to talk to. You people have been there all the while, i know, when i'm upset, i can look for you all. Thanks so much for not letting me feel that i'm not alone, you guys are with me. Thanks so much, i love you guys. :')

I shall stop here? I've got enough! And, i got 2 picture to show you'all, its Sri's dedication to me and Rena's 16th! :D

Okay, ciao! Tag me yeah! Bye!

Happy birthday to my dearest short cousin, Yeeru! :) Happy 13th, enjoy!

School was okay, was trying to take a chance but tak-layan face was shown, fed-up.
Mdm Fat is absent from school, spent 2 hours on my art, couldn't concentrate, fuck.
Played with Velvet paper with Fana. Fun, yes.
Ate rice during recess.

Social studies was ok, a fight broke out at opp class, bro's. Between Jesse and CP.
Lame shit, damn lame.
Chinese had spelling, then did social studies worksheet.
After school went to canteen then to class 4E.

Met Mr Raj, passed him the worksheets.
Yes, attitude attitude, haiz.

Went for star, english. did work, slept.
Woke up, changed seat, songs plugged in, thinking of alot of stuffs.
Tolerating, very hard.

Went to canteen, with Fadhila and Fana. Recieved a text from someone.
Bitching around, cb around, teary eyes.
Field, talked to Akif.

Then left for canteen.
Farris talked to me while we exchange our shoes back.
God, im so fucking cb stupid.

Left school around 6.30, was stoning all the while. sorry guys, i cried again. :'(
Walked home with alson and fadluddin. didn't talk much, they rushed the traffic while i waited.

Reached home, bath, stone, online.
Found out somethang, god, what did i do to deserve all these man?

you know what, i meant what i said, but not every words, not words of fustrations.
and you got me so jumbled up.

everything's not going right, someone kill me puh-lease. -_-

Water mix detergent, should i drink you up and end everything?

I can't take it already, haiz. :'(

should i cry or angry?

weak or strong?

continue or break?

Ah, fuck, whatever shit. holy cb mama, stop crying bitch!! -_-

Edited at 9.42pm.

Thanks for all the concerns, i seriously got no idea whether am i alright. what can i say other than I'm Fine. All The Best. Don't Cry. I'm Okay ? Please, i really don't know what to do. What can i do but to cry? You know, i really felt like crying since i saw your pm on the 21st. But i told myself, i'm thinking too much. Soccer match, soccer match..

Never thought that i'm lying to myself.
Never ever thought that i'm such a liar, even to myself.
Never thought that i'm that naive, super-naive.
Never thought that i'm that weak, such a weakling.
I feel like hiding, i don't want to go out.

I should have went to Indonesia and absent myself from school.
I should have stop myself.
I should have just continue to lie to myself.
I should have did my should haves.

Now, stand up from the place where i fell down, move on with my life, concentrate on my studies. But i know, it will be effing freaking fucking cb hard to just forget! I need to control my emotions, i hope, i can get over it soon, strongly without tears.

But, who's gonna help me up? :'(

He said > Sorry, i think i'm gonna move on already.
She said > Ooh, okay..
He said > Goodbye.
She said > Bye, *eyes turns teary.

She thought to herself > I think i love him. But, its too late..

Moral > Appreciate, hold on tightly, don't wait till its gone and cry.

Okay, school today was kinda okay. Mom drove us to school, and again its raining. Headed to the canteen, settled down with Sri and co. Ensure Sri that i'm alright cause last night she was efffing worried bout me. Bought Mineral water, headed to class.

F.a.s.t, sleep. Ha ha, then Physics. Headed to Lab late, did experiment. Changed shoes with Fadhila for slippers. Cause her Mother Tongue teacher was Mdm Bariyah. While mine was Ms Chan C.Y, not that strict eh, :/

Fadhila > Eh, Emily! You leg small ah!
Emily > Shut up, then still want to wear a not?!
Fadhila > Yes! Ha ha.
Emily > Okay. Then don't complain, bird!

Then had Mother Tongue, didn't did much work, slacked around with Tina, BinJun, Alson and JiaWei. Left for ground floor for my shoes, then headed to Canteen. Cut queue, thanks Izzuan for helping me to buy! ^_^ Then after eating, headed to class.

Went to toilet with Fadhila and Fieza. Fadhila left, leaving me and Fieza at the toilet. Then after that went back class, didn't do work, sleep again.

Then after English, went to Toilet, to vomit. Vomited 3 times, was fucking cb unwell. Went back class, then went to vomit again, wahpiangzsx. Then went back class, slept till 1.35pm.

After that, left for canteen. Then chilled, went to Art room, on the way to the Art room, was making irritating sound, and it can easily irritate you, trust me. And it was a one-man-show. This is the sequence.

Fana > Emily, try doing "eeeeeee" in a high pitch sound of yours.
Me > Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
Fana and Aslina > Shut up, very irritating!!
Me > EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!~
Aslina & Fana > Eh, he's infront, shut up! Shut up!!
Me > EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! What? Huh?

* i looks in-front, laughed out loud with Fana.
* He was staring at me, as well was the rest.
3 of us quickly walked and giggled to ourselves.

He > Emily, come.
Me > What?
He > You siao ah?
Me > *diao him, walk-away.
He > Laughed.

The rest, shan't elaborate. Then headed to Artroom, then to Ground floor, then to canteen for S.T.A.R Was fedup, did work, slept, walkaround, chitchats, naggings from Mr Han! Then did worksheet, wants to screw Chemistry, wants to drop Science but i can't, :@ Ms Chua talked to me, told her what happen, and she asked me to get over it soon.

Headed to Artroom, went to foyer, then left, talked with Shikin, then canteen with Jiawei. Sera was like telling me that she's unhappy, and i just stoned. Left school with Lingsheng.

You know? I think, i've made up my mind. Cause i'm really irked and hurt with all these happenings. All these happenings seriously puts me off completely.

I don't want to behave like this, i'm struggling, i can't do this anymore.
I don't want to fight anymore, i want everything to be back to normal.
I don't want to go to work on weekends.
I don't want to be not-myself in school.
I don't want my don't wants.

Can i just end it with Water with Detergent? I think thats the most quietest way to die, and also most peaceful way without being afraid of.

Yes, i'm a coward. I don't seems to be daring. How do you expect me to cope with all these things which can easily hurt me without knowing?

No, i can't. I'm not that strong like what you people think, cause i am not.

I am not the old Emily, i've changed. And, i think its the biggest achievements.

I changed my lanjiao attitude, and the outcome was terrific. And, i love it.

But the present me, im starting to hate it, im like a coward.

Dearest friends, Mf Fadzil, Mdm Fatimah, tell me what should i do?

My life seems to get more and more complicating, and i can't cope with it.

I just want happy life, i want to be happy. And please, i don't like interruptions.

I'm just a girl, a normal girl, i don't have super-natural powers, i need concern. :(

School today was okay, reached bustop, seeing Cdians with a smile on their faces, i felt like running away, so i walked up by myself. Then reached Canteen, stoned. Walk to class, was having cough, went to Office with Fadhila and Sri to take mask.

Lessons was sucky, especially Chemistry!! What tha hell? Is Mr Han aiming at me?! Like what tha hell lah! Please lah hor, don't aim me leh, you not happy with me then say lah, don't need to say i don't have self discipline leh, you sure i don't have? If i don't have, you think i wanna stay in your class and do your worksheet ah!?

Went to Com lab 2 to do survey, then geog. Then recess, then Art. Then English. Had English at Lab 2 again.

After school, was scalded by hot soup, then went to Art. Then to S.T.A.R, had Math test, after awhile, slept, and guess what? All the girls were sleeping while the boys were talking. Cool or what? Then headed to Art again, left around 6 plus.

I suceeded in being "happy" today, i laughed, i am so-back-to-my-self. H2h talk with Sri, Fieza, Fadhila and Michelle, im still upset. :'(

I feel like crying tonight, i feel like causing myself to have fever tonight, and absent myself from school tomorrow, so that i can get a break from all those heartless people from my school, i need a break, i want to end it. :(

I can't, and i won't, please don't be sad cause of me, i'm not worth it. :(

To Passerby, Y : I'm so sorry, i need some time alone, im so sorry, i will tell you the name of the song soon alright? Xoxo.

Love is blind, and so am i.
I'm sorry, and please, don't be sad. :'(
You're making me crying again. :'(

Play pretence, im sorry.

Baby, i'll miss you.

Okay, hello everyone. Miss my post? Well, i didn't came online yesterday on purpose anyway, cause many things was on my mind and i think i need a good talk with my girl. But things now seems to be okay, i seems to be taking it well now, so thumbs up for me? Ah, whatever.

School today was a hectic one for me, i was struggling all the way, my alarm rang since 5.45am, i snoozed it till 6.15am, woke up, texted Fana to remind her to bring Tie for Oral and Fadhila. Went out at 6.50am, reached Pending, top-up card, then saw Akif. Then bus 963 with Lingsheng as 184 was damn frigging full. -_- Bodoh sia, nye SMRT!

Then reached Bustop late, walked up with Fadhila, Emmabel, Sidek and Sera. Then went to Parade Sq, teacher nag, took attendance, went back class. And what-tha-hell? Our seating arrangement changed! We've gotta sit row by row now, and by register number, grrrr. So bobian, sit jiu sit loh, ah-ber-dhen? -_-

Had Mother-tongue, had Oral practices and i was tongue-tied, but i was loud, ha ha! Then English, took temperature, my temperature was like getting high then low, high then low. Then had Math, went to Office, then to Mrs Viswa's homeroom as my back was killing me, fucking cb pain. Then applied cream, went for Math, slept all the way, i was feeling damn uncomfortable..

Recess, didn't ate much, was having a hard time with myself, seriously, i'm struggling..

Then went for Geog, buey tahan the pain, went to look for Mrs Viswa again, and this time, i'm having a difficult time to get the cream for myself, but its so pain that i got no strength to walk, thank god, Shakir was there, so i got him to help me ask for it as im a coward to do so, then Suhaimi told me that Mrs Viswa is teaching his class.. Then took the cream, headed to Toilet, Sri helped me with it, it was a big patch of red thing lah, fucking pain, then after that, we've gotta return it to her. And, we did it eventually, with the help of Mdm Fatimah, i managed to got through it.. :')

Did work, then headed to Art room, then off to canteen. Bought food, till Shakir told me somethang and i was pissed and walk away to look for Fadhila and Michelle. And, after what had happened, i cried, i didn't know that you cared for me, i didn't know that i can be so fucking cb on you, i'm struggling, i'm sorry my dear. :(

S.t.a.r programme was okay, walked with Fadhila to Pending with Izzuan and Fadluddin. I went home after sending 'em to Pending.

I'm struggling, i'm so sorry, i'm so upset, i'm such a coward, but no matter what, in order to not let you to be upset, i shall be the one who's gonna be upset. And, i want you to be happy..

Yesterday's Party at Rena's was fun, took alot of pictures, but its with Michelle, i only got 2, i took it with Fana and Michelle! ^^ Here you go. :)


Alright, shall end here, wish me luck for the rest of the day, may god let me pull it through and not playing with my mood. :) Ciaos! Tag me okayyy! ^^

i miss you. i miss your everything. i miss those happy times.
We've been bickering almost everytime when we chats. i'm so sorry.
I just want you to be happy, seriously. i miss you alot, my dearest friend.
Takecare Mister, i know you won't read it. But, is the thoughts that counts..

Just keep pushing on.

Hello, i'm back! I just changed my Blogskin and i'm feeling much more better, and my dearest Lestie is not angry with me, phew* Ha ha, well, let me elaborate about my day today okay?

I woke up at 11am sharp, woke up, switched off air-con, wash up, online.

Then bath, ate lunch around 1 plus, Bro cooked Instant noodle for me, then shortly after Mom called, saying she's at Bpp, asking whether do we want takeaways. So we decided on Kfc, then Mom came back with Kfc in her hands, 3 of us ate Kfc while Mom ate Subway. ;)

Didn't ate much, cause the Instant Noodles is still inside my stomach, ha ha. Then online again, did housework, and called Fana, Michelle.

Bestf is online but less than 20 minutes, he is offlined, as his Psp low battery. :/

Okay, time check, now is 10.38pm, and i've yet had my dinner, i still have $10.00 with me, should i go downstairs and buy food? :/ Grrah, sianz.

Anyway, i'm heading to Rena's party tomorrow, will be meeting Fana at Bpp Mac @ 3pm. Well, i've yet thought of any ideas for Rena's birthday, :/ Shall cham-xiong with Fana tomorrow, hehe!

Was on Mileen cousin's blog, and i saw her Slideshow, and i find myself missing the lil 3 princess of Lee's! And, they've grown up, omfg. Ningning is fatter! Enen and Xinxin is studying already! Miko is growing taller, and yes, Mileen is getting prettier. Omg, its been few months since i last see 5 of 'em, geeez! Hope they are doing well anyway! :D

I'm on Msn with Fana and Kak Fieza now. I'm god damn confused now, shit. :-(

I got something bothering me now, and i don't think i will post it here? Okay, i shall not post it here, life is getting more and more demanding nowadays. :/

I shall get use to it, and i will live it in a happy way! ^^

Okay, i'm bored now, someone entertain me please? :) Anyway, those people who always view my blog without tagging, tag lah!

I shall stop here, will post tomorrow then, ciaos. C:

HA-HA-HE-HE-HO-HO.

When i love someone, i will always think of my mistakes and you.

Okay, hello readers, i'm damn disappointed in myself now. So sorry, i won't be changing blogskins for my friends anymore, i lost my confidence. I think Aslina Lestie is mad at me, because i forgot to transfer her links to the new blogskin. :-( So sorry lestie, so sorrry!

I use to be good at it, but now, i am not. I think its because after those happenings that happened yesterday are still hanging out at my brain cells, gosh, please, go away!

So sorry, Iqah and Joyce, i think i can't help y'all with your blogskins already, because i suck at it. I felt like changing blogskin, because i'm so upset, haiszsx. :-(

So sorry, i need my confidence back, uhm, let's wait till Aslina's cooled down. :/

I'm on i-don't-know-who's blog and i found this video, the singer is kinda "hawt" lah, and when you see him sings, you'll freak out, trust me for that! :D





So, shocking right? Its like a dog meaowing - Simon. Ha ha ha, roflz! ^^ Another thang, i was on Aslina's Facebook and i went to take a look at her pictures ; Drama. And, i felt sad, cause me and Her use to be so easy-going, and now, i simply hates her, gosh, what am i saying?! -_-

I miss Drama practices! I miss laughing out loud! I miss playing British Bull Dog! I miss organizing games for my sweet lil juniors! I miss lil Pathi! I miss Claire Devine! I miss all my Drama peoples! Gawd, how stupid am i!? :/

20th July, Cca gonna resume, and i know, she will be there, i've got no idea to whether to go up and give a hug to Claire and spend a minute up in the AVA room. Because i know, if i were to go up, i will see her, and i won't be able to avoid her as she's part of the society too. People/readers, let me know, should i go?



Again, my brain is starting to think, be happy, emily tan hui yi. Haiz, shit-lah.

Will post again later i think? Mom is at Bpp, yay, with KFC in her hand! ^_^

dropped dead.

I've been thinking, should i just type it here or keep it. Well, i've decided, keep it everything in my heart.

Emily, you suck ttm.

School started out to be fine, 184 to school, walked up with Fadhila, waved to Bestf, Aslina is lazy to walk up, so i walked with Fadhila.

Went to canteen, bought mineral water, headed to Toilet, went to class late on purpose. Cause we don't want to be on-time.

Had Chemistry, then Math, Physics, then Chemistry again. Friday is always a science day.

After school, headed to Bpp with Kak Fieza, Fana, Aslina, Jeni and Fadhila. Then bus back to school, ate our sushi on the way to school, and i was happy to be with them! :)

Firstly, why is Mr Han our chemistry teacher? Haisz, he seems to hate our class, even a lil sound also pisses him off, and we as student are having a difficult time. Is it because he is getting old?

Ohwell, i told myself, Chemistry will never hold me back, as well as Physics. Im going to strive hard, bitches. :]

And Physics class is having 3 teachers at a go, 1 teacher for 1 row, and lucky me, i got Miss.Shorty! Ha ha, but Mr Faizal kept coming to my table, and i hate him for mocking at me for being fat, just because i didn't ran during his PE lesson! :@ Me and the charlie fat angels are so damn angry, ha ha! But he is very nice anyway, ha ha! :P He said he wants to step stress. HA!

Tomorrow is Saturday, yesssah! ^^ Sunday, heading to Rena's party at her condo, and her party's code dress is fabulous cool, lol. -_- dress to impress haha.

Okay, my parent's aint home yet, i'm starving, im freaking hungry, i only ate 3 sushi, and one plate of $1.50 nasi briyani. :/ Gosh, im near to sucess of slimming down! xD

And apparently, i'm okay already, no emo-ing in the future, sorry to everyone for my attitude, i promise to change for better me! ^_^

My girls, Kamilah, Fieza, Fana, Aslina, Fadhila, Jenica and Michelle who is sick now, i thank you girls for the encouragements and never-giving-up-on-me attitude! :)

Shakir and Suhaimi, thanks so much for the effort for making me happy.

Hadi, Akif, Farris, Angelo, Mr Fadzil, Lingsheng, thanks when i needed someone to listen to me, and Farris, lol, stop sweating like as if you walked in the rain, :/

Mdm Fatimah, thanks for being understanding, i know i've been sulky for the past few weeks for your lessons, but i promise you, no more sulky face but noisy atmostphere alright? ^^

Yongchang di, thanks for your encouragements! I will fight! :D

To Bestf, thanks for understanding, thanks alot, remember what i said. :)

^_^ Preparing for Math test on Tuesday as i promise Bestf to pass! :D

Finally Saturday is here, and im going to study Math, and most importantly, brainstorming!

My dearest Rena's 16th is here, ho-ho. And, Angelo was 16th yesterday, happy birthday dude.

Goal for next week!
Bestf to be problem-free, gonna help him out!
No sulky face.
Happy face!
Be back to noisy emily.
Get my laughter back.
No fake laughter, fake smiles.
Everyone to be happy.
And most importantly, pass Math test and get chocolates from Mrs Gohhhh! :P

happy startout, bad ending.

Hi people, i'm back from school around 7pm? :) Well, today was kinda long, and my temperature were going up and down, like a roller coaster. Alright, let me elaborate my day today then.

Woke up around 6.30am, my alarm rang from 5.45 till 6.30 as i didn't want to wake up, hek hek. Then woke up, did things as i did like i do as usual, then went out at 6.50am, board 184, and missed 2nd bus on purpose, then met 'em, took 3rd bus, had a chat with Kamilah on the bus, :)

Reached, canteen, mineral water. Standard, tsk. Then went to class, Fana was late, and when she reached, i bombarded her with my whinings and she's being so holy to listen to me. ^^ Ha ha, bestfriends what!

Then had Math, i did my worksheet okay, easy lah eh! :/ Ha ha, then had Art for 2 hours, and i finally finished feather, i mean 1 bird out of 3 bird. Gonna chiong chiong chiong. =)

Had Social studies test about deterrence today, and yes, i did lah. Then after that mother tongue, was nervous man, nervous to the max! :'(

Had oral, before heading to the waiting room, went to Library for temperature taking and you know whaaaaaaaat?! My temperature was high siah! Its 37.7 degree at first, then 2nd time is 37.9 degree. I admit i was god damn nervous and feeling very very warm. Then Mdm Suria help me to take temperature, and guess what? Its 36.7 degree. HAHA! Damn dumb i know, ha ha. Then headed to Com Lab 1, was laughing out loud when Mdm Yap is briefing us. Cause Shakir was irritating her, lol.

Then me and fadhila kept talking and talking, and laughed and laughed. Lol, then after that finally my turn, i was god damn fucking nervous lah, the picture was difficult, and i was at lost. And the passage was kinda okay, boleh pass lah, hais. Then conversation, well, i leaked a top secret of mine, only some of my friends know, and i hope by leaking this secret of mine can let me passsss! ^_^

Then after oral, headed to Art room, did my work. Then went to toilet with Fana, Fadhila and Fieza. Took pichas! We took alot, but i'm going to upload only 2 pictures, hek hek. :P

Okay, then after Art, left school with Fana, Fadhila, Kamilah, Irene, Shakir, Akif and Suhaimi. Then all of 'em left for Lrt while me and Shakir continue to walk to my block. Nah, he is not sending me home, he is heading to Petir to board 970 home eh!

Ha ha, then reached home, bath, stone, online, dinner after bestf asked me to eat. C:

My dearest Sakinah cat-lover is down with H1N1, and im gonna pray for her from tonight onwards My dear girl, although you won't be able to see this, but you know what, im going to pray for you, stay strong, i love you! I want to see you soon so that i could give you a big hug ok! Mwarkz! :B

Tired of being happy

Like what Mr Fadzil said, i have to stop writting about my personal stuffs on my blog. I'm just making myself losing to this battle. And, by my post, i can let you have a step ahead of me. And, i mustn't let Blueberry win this battle, and Squirrel must win it! :) Thanks Mr Fadzil for those funny encouragements! :D

Okay, tomorrow is the 16th July, i'm having my English Oral tomorrow after school.
Bestfriend said i can do it, and he said i can. :)
But i think i can't, cause of Picture Discussing, as i will go "err, err, errrrr"
God damn it, but no matter what, i've gotta try!
Gonna take a look on my notes after i posted. :O

I've been kinda sad for these few days, and i don't like it. People around me are getting annoyed by my attitude, and they are gettin worried. :/ So sorry girls, i know i'm such a letdown.

I cried today, actually i didn't want to till Fadhila and Fieza hugged me in the toilet, and i was really very very sad. People from Usuals are bombarding me with questions, Eh, what happen to you Emily? Why cry? What happen? Tell me lar. What lovely friends i got, all i said to them was "I am ok, nothing happened."

I felt better after seeing the Ncc's POP. Because Lingsheng and Shafiq was like making me irritated and i laughed.

I felt much more happier after walking with You-know-who from school to Pending, yes i am over the moon, but i know i shouldn't be doubting his words, i should believe and trust him. ;]

Alright, no doubting of words, trust is the word to make myself feel better and stay happy.

Alright, shall end here, ciao people, tag me alright! Wish me luckkkkkk. ;]

ego ego ego.

Hello readers! I'm back home around 6.30pm. :) Alright, shall elaborate my day today alright? :)

Woke up around 7am, raining, and i just don't feel like waking up for school, zzz. Lol, then Mom called me up, then got ready, mom drove us to schl, then reached school, headed to the canteen, bought mineral water and egg-bread. Then sat down, chit chat with Shane ans Emmeline.

Then after that, Sri and co came, as well as the usuals. Then after that walked back to class, then had F.a.st, did 2 paragraphs then fell asleep, lol! Then after that went to toilet with Fana, met Sri too, so we talk cork inside the toilet eh, hek hek.

Then went back class for Physics, then i studied ok! ^_^ I did my worksheeeeet man, roflz. Then Fana was so clever, she did it on her own while i did it with Aslina and Sri. :D

Mother Tongue................ Alright, i did my work too, lol. Then talked with 'em, (duh) then starting to feel unwell, zzz.

Recess! Yay, but i didn't eat, sibeh no appetite, damn uncomfortable, felt very warm, but im not having fever, rofl? Then all ate while i didn't, then after that walked back to class with Cheryl and Tina. :]

Had English, finished my Report writting and then went to sleep, was fucking cold and unwell, slept till Fana woke me up, thanks dudette.

Had social studies, went to Art room cause Mr Raj gotta go to other school for Oral. So, art student were granted to head to Art room for art, and Izad's class were there, -_-

Then after school, headed to canteen, wanted to eat at first, but i don't felt like after crying like a small girl. -_- Never-mind, i don't want to talk about it anyway!

A squirrel must have its hazelnut! - Mr Fadzil! :B

Thanks Mr Fadzil, lol. Then headed to art room, then left for office as Fadhila hurt her forehead like how i hurt my cheek the other time. And, poor her, she's like me!! Then went to canteen, Jeni companied her home.

Went to Library for S.T.A.R :) Reached around 3.15pm, marked attendance, then went to canteen for food as i was damn super duper hungry, then went back library, didn't studied at all, haha! Then went to Artroom, had Macdo Wings! ;D Then went to Parade Sq to see Ncc's POP. Ha ha ha, damn funny lah all of them, roflz.

Then went back artroom, left school around 6 with Sri and Jiawei etc. Then in the end, walked with you-know-who as he asked me to, and of course with his friends, and Shafiq damn kanasai, kept on disturbing me with you-know-who, and you-know-who was so clever to tell Shafiq this > Eh, die faham melayu bodoh" And i turned and smiled. Lol, ha ha ha! Then while walking back, you-know-who told me something and i was shocked, seriously. :O

Then walked you-know-who to Pending while i left home with Cammie :) Then reached home, bath, ate dinner, online. ^^

And,why nobody tag meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?! :'( Ji sad yi xia hao bu hao!

Tag me lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhz.

PS:/ I'M HAVING MY N LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL TOMORROW, OHMGAWD. :@

PS:/ I'M ON THE PHONE WITH FADHILAAAAAAA!

PS:/ I'M VERY HAPPY TODAY!! :D

PS:/ TAG ME NOW, STALKERS! :P

我真的非常喜欢你,但你的脑海里只有她..

Okay, apparently i deleted the previous post, because i'm no longer angry and i feel that im so rude to end it with a "bye cheebyes". Ha ha, so pardon me alright? :D I shall do a proper post and do tag me alright, okay?! Me luv you all, many many. :}

Okay, almost, missed the shuttle bus, waited for Alson, and he didn't turned up, grr. So i just board 184, reached bustop, 3rd bus were there, and Hadi were like staring at me like i killed someone, i just diao him, rofl. Then thanks to Shakir, he pushed me up to the bus, if not, i gotta walk up already, roflz. :-D

Bought mineral water like i always does, then headed to class for temperature taking, then Mdm Bariyah came, and she's saying that those who are with long hairs, no socks, short skirt have to go to Foyer. And guess what, nobody from our class went! Omggggggay, im so proud of 4D! ^^

Had Chemistry, and i was so irritated by the teacher!! -_- Why is it that just a lil sound, laugher or whatsoever you stares at ME?! -_- I know ah, i very noisy, but hello, i wasn't the one lah! And, this teacher likes to aim me and Fana, wth. Un-fair lah! Geeez.

Pe after that, changed, fana the girl, i think she raging hormones, she forced me, fadhila and her into a changing room, and wtfffffff, she so disgusting, and Fadhila actually shouted out my *top secret* man, wtf. :@ Then changed already, 3 of us walked to parade sq, damn Fadhila go tell Shakir my *top secret*. And Shakir was like l-o-l-ing lah, wtf. :( Then ran the whole school, i mean walked. Then went to Basketball court, then to parade sq, played badminton.

Geography, boring as ever, zzzzzzzzzzzzz. So hawt, i mean the weather. xD

Recess, ate, Jiawei help me buy, hek hek, thanks so much lar, Jiawei ^^

Art class, headed to Art room (duh) and again, cut cut cut cut cut! With my cute classmate and kak, ^^

Then English, was the most fun lesson among all for today. Normally Ms Meena always nag at us, but today never. :) Were talking about report-writting. Then she were saying " Okay, this is the head of the writing, then the body then the " And i shouted "KONEK!" And whole class laughed, as well as Ms Meena, then i took the pass and got out of the class, ha ha ha!

After that Mr Nasim came in, again, encouraging stuffs for us! :D And he was happy that none of the 4D students were at the foyer in the morning. :) Yay, then he dismissed us.

Headed to canteen, reached, of course, look out for *ahem. Then chill abit at the usual's. Then went to Artspiration there, re-filled bottle, talked to Bestf. Then wished him luck for his oral and i left for Art with Aslina. :}

Cut again, then left at 3pm, walked around, dilly-dally, talked to Bestf's friend, Azri, lol. He damn effing funny, roflz! HA HA HA HA HA! I cannot stop thinking of him, i mean the way he talk. Ha ha, then headed to Miss Ooi homeroom for math, reached at 3.30pm, damn pro. :)

Did math, Miss Ooi taught halfway, and she left, and she asked one of the express student to teach us, and he got so fed up with my questions. Lololol, anyway, i asked cause i really don't know, not on purpose de okay. And the way he talk, i cannot stand it sia, Fana, Me were like keep on trying to control our laugher, lmaoz. Then left Homeroom at about 4.15pm, headed to Art room again. :/

Then left artroom with Michelle, headed to the walk-way along the field. Then had h2h talk with her regarding life things like that, and she told me her's too, well, i just love her! :P Huzai were playing football with Zoomzoom and Bestf. And, i was being very very sacarstic towards Huzai and Bestf, hek hek! :D Don't bully girls okay! =]

Then left for art room, cut again! Left school at 6pm, played piano with Jeni! Then walked to 220 to meet Fadluddin, Alson & Izzuan. Then i left home, bath, onlined, dinner.

Vomited out those dinner food, *grosszsx. My stomach siao liao lar! :/ Then were pissed off by someone ah, but never-mind, forget it, takes time, be patient.

Taking Mom's car to school tomorrow, F.A.S.T tomorrow, ohmygawdddddd. Zzz, sian sian sian.
Thursday is my oral day, omgawddddd! N LEVEL, HERE I COME, GRAH. :/

And, i'm so bored now, and i'm finding myself gettin excited over small things, and then merajuk with small stuffs, haiyor, emily siao liao lar.

BORED, EFFING BORED, VERY BORED, BORED TO THE MAX, HATE CB KIAS.

On msn with Fana and Huzai, rofl. And yesssssah, Billy Pussymeaow finally, finally updated his blog, HAHAHAHAH! YAY! :D

Okay, da, bye stalkers, readers. TAG MEEEEEE!

I felt dumbfounded when i saw that, oh baby, why call her baby? :O

i don't wanna change you

Hi everyone, i'm here to post, duh. Its beeeeen a freaking long day today, didn't even managed to really laugh out loud today, well, i think i will not be laughing out loud for the next few days? Because whenever it comes to recess, end of school, i'm sad. Because when i see you, the whole scenario happens, and i don't wanna be like that you know peopleeeeeee? *sad face.
Well, whatever, i've gotta learn to understand that certain things needs time for you to see than me telling you, right? :/

Okay, 7 words for today, I-don't-want-to-feel-this-way. :( I'm having a hard time, holy.
Alright, shall elaborate then. :) Bear with me alright, and tag too! ^_^

Mother Tongue > Wrote down 21 words, and h2h talk with Tina Darling, and, of course, i told her what happened in my life 3 days ago. :-) And, i felt better although i still feeeeel bitter.

English > Did work, and Fana didn't! Damn her, she is being very sacarsitc, she said " Wow, emily hard-working ah" Shit here, rofl.

Mathematics > Went up to Homeroom, didn't listened much, was texting with Peter. Then fana wrote something very sweet to me, and here you go. >

So sweet of her, and i'm so glad to have her as my bestfriend. :D Thanks so much Fana, i know you dislikes me talking about it, but you still gave me the best encouragements. Love you tons, seriously. :)

Recess > Didn't felt like eating at all, but still bought my food, =.= Then in the end, also never eat, damn stupid, such a kamgong, roflz. But girls, i'm fine, i'm alright, i hope i am. :)

Geography > H2h with Aslina, then i slept, woke up, Shakir, Farris, Alson & Suhaimi was being so ultra friendly towards me, weird. Lol.

Ve > God damn it, holy shit, none of the 4D students are eligible for Sec 5 man, wtffff! Was kinda scared and worried for my Prelims, which is like less than 1 month? :( Haiz, fuck life. :(

Social Studies S.t.a.r > So boring, but shiok, because we're in the library, and for god sake, i did my work man, omg. Lolololol. -_-

Art > Its almost done, and im kinda happy about it, Mdm Fat says i needa do more, in order to be just-in-time for the deadline. :) Soooooooo, kam-ba-teh ehhhhhhh!

I'm on MSN with Kak Fieza, and i'm so sorry, i know you care about me, i know you love me, thanks for understanding, but you know what, you won't add to my burden. But you as my kak, nothing can be compared to making you happy alright, because you were always there for me when i'm upset so no matter what happens, you must tell me okay! I love you alot, ^^

I'm getting from bad to worse, i thought i can just forget everything, but i was wrong, i tell myself, its already over, i'm getting stronger, and i'm going to get over this, and you know what, i'm having a hard time, seriously. The sight of you, makes me reminiscence about what happened..

3rd post,

Alright, 3rd post. I'm back from Jurong, :-) I'm very overwhelmed with the tags on my tagboard, thanks people, i love y'all to bits! :D Okay, Kak told me something, and i'm being upset bout it, damn betch. -_-

Oh well, its the same old person again, and frankly speaking, i don't like her since i first saw her when i'm in Cdss, i don't know why.

For me, if the first sight of that particular person was bad, i will hate that person from that day onwards, and i will try my very best to make friends with that person and maybe change my point of view towards him/her. C:

And, just now Kak fieza told me that this paricular somone when to talk to my girlfriend about us, talking about us, and yes, its of course bad stuffffs! And like please, we thought that by being a year older than us can think much better, but i think not. And, finally, people are with me, i'm all along against you, and i really tried to be friends with you, but nah, sorry, i don't want to already. You can say that i'm following the crowd, yes, i am, but seriously, i think i'm right. :)

You can hate me, but don't ever fucking cb talk behind my back, if you do, i will do that too, and trust me, i will. :) Stop showing off your whatever photoshoots, or whatever shit. Alright, i'm too much, okay lah, stop eet emily tan hui yi. :@

Had a stupid funney quarrel with Cat. Ha ha, and Kak made me and him apologized, damn betch. Lololol, we did anyway, and we're gonna get along, very very well, hek hek hek hek! :P

Okay, its 10.43pm, i felt that i forgot to do smth, but i just can't recall what is it, shit. Nevermind, shall go offline, chowz. :D

Battlefield, get your armour ready.

Alright, hello again, i'm posting again because i'm going to Songka later on with my Sintua's people. ^^ So yeap, i'm blogging here for the second time, and also my last time for today. :-)

Tomorrow is Monday, again, will be going home late. :(

I'm having my N level oral English on the 16th July, and i'm frigggging scared. Ohmygad. :(

Omgggggggggggggod, im so anxious for it, and once again, i'm wearing my tie after 2 years plus of not wearing it! :D Ha, but should i wear mine or those ties from Library? :O

Okay, i woke up around 11am? Woke up, ate carrot cake, helped mom with changing of bedsheets. Its fun, and cool. Ha ha, and mom got me a new bedsheet! :B

Sunday is so boring, i mean every weekends, but school days are tiring, life is so complicating, and zzzzzz. But nevermind, my N's ends on the 8th October, i mean the last 2 papers is on the 8th, which is Mathematics and Geography! Yay, so shuang man. Heard that all those who didn't took art ends later? Don't know, but im lucky man, ha ha! Can relax already, i can't wait, omgad.

And, i do all these after 8th October! :)

Check out the lots available!

Wait for my 4 ladies's N to end!

Go crazy.

Relive my stressssssssssssssssszsx.

GO EVERYTHING THAT I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO! :-)

AND, ONE MORE IMPORTANT THANG, PARTYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :-D

Exciting ya? No, i haven't even ate my lunch for today, somemore talk about 8th Oct. LOL SIALZ. O.O, DAMN YOU EMILYYYYYYYY!

Okay, i'm on msn with love counsellor, a.k.a Apon, ha ha ha! Well, what he said is making sense. Okay, i shall bear that in my mind from now on. Thanks Apon, :-D

And one more fucking thang, this is for all those people who have been badmouthing people.

Like what the fuck, you read my blog, you go tell people wrong stories, trying to spoil friendships among my friends. And, please, you're not spoling, you are bonding it, for god sake.

Oh, sorry if my english is not up to your standard because as far as i know, those people who are badmouthing people are those who's english is not good, and of course, people who need to get a life, and more teaching to be done for 'em. And if you're unhappy, i welcome you to tag me okay, tag ah, not spam. You know what's tag and spam? I hope you know lah, ha ha. If not, hais, i bwg already.

And, i don't care you are from sec 1, 2, 3, 4 or even 5, you're stil a lowly person to me, seriously.

Go and get a life, and also balls to come and talk big with your name. If there's no balls for you, then sorry, you've gotta dig a hole and hide inside. I admit i'm being very nbcbpubor here, but you people stepped my tail, you people cause me and my friend quarrelled, and for god sake, i thank god for the outcome, its not spoiling but making it better, stronger.

Don't feel honoured after seeing my 3 paragraphs that were being dedicated to you people, its my pleasure. ^^ I don't mind writting more for you people, but you see, i got more things that are worth me writing for, ha-ha.

Okay, i'm done, chowz. :-)

Looking forward

I'm going to make my hair obvious, like on top. ^^ Yesssssah, my current hairstyle is like on top's, but its not obvious, and i go to school with my hair tied up, so its kinda not obvious. Soooooo, i'm so looking forward to the next cutting sesssion yaw. Anyone wants to join meeeee? He he he, okay, crazy dingdong.

Erhm, was overwhelmed by Cheryl's post on Crazycrap's blog, Allure Sist's tag, Fieza, Fana, Aryna and Apon's msn encouragements. And of course, Apon even made the effort to call me making sure i'm alright, and yesterday was his 18th birthday man, lol. But its alright, i'm fine, definately fine. And, Fana is being so ultra nice to write somethang to me on her blog, and of course, we're bestfriends whaaaaaaat! :) Let me show you, when i read it last night, i cried man, too touch and its so sweeeet of her! *mwah!

Okay , just now i have a chat with Emily . Seems that she's feeling upset about 'him' .Fuck lah , i seriously don't like the guy that she deeply in love with , but what can i do ? I just okay with it since she's my bestfriend , & i gotta give her some good support . (((: I seriosly don't want her to get heartbreak again like last time when she loves 'N' alot but he upsets her everytime . Haiis , i can feel the hurtful-ness when everytime she cried for 'N' . And now , she likes 'him' so much , and im afriad that same thing will happen again . Dear Emily , you , as my best friend , i'd always wanted you to be happy whatever it is . So , do the best thing for yourself . Be optimistic like me hah ! *wide smile Haaaaa . Anw , all the best between you and 'him' . Hope everything will be alright . (((:

So sweet of her, i seriously love her to bits! :D And i'm so glad that she's okay with Pluto Akif already! Must cherish alright? :) Okay, i'm on msn with her now, chowz. :-) Will blog later okay, byeeeeee! :D

act it out.

my friend is upset, and she got no idea how to express it.
my friend is afraid that outcome will be bad.
my friend is fucking sad, crying non-stop.
my friend is stupid to be so stupid.
my friend is not being appreciated.
my friend is tired of everything.
my friend is scared.
my friend is ego-ing.
my friend is a scardy cat, let's boo her. ):
my friend needs understanding.
my friend needs hugs.
my friend needs things that can make her happy.
my friend is planning to drink water with detergent.
my friend is such a loser.

my friend, you suck to the core, go and get a life. bitch.

When a bird got fooled by a cat.

Hello people, i'm here to blog for today! :) Well, this morning suck, esp around 7 plus am when i'm still sleeping. My dog came in to my room, and slept. Well, my dog loves air-con, so that he can sleeeeep very shiok, haha. Lol. :/

Then my grandma came in and shouted my dog's name very loudly, then i got irritated and shouted "Kaopeh la". Lol, i know its damn rude, but you know what? I'm fucking irritated y'see, and i don't see a point why must my grandma chase my dog out, -_- She's really very irritating you know, i know she's my grandma, but i just dislikes her alot, serious. :@

Okay, shan't talk about her already, spoils mood. Anyway, she's at my Aunt's crib, staying overnight there, hek hek hek. I love Saturday the most, the day when my house is only filled with 5 humans, Mom, Dad, Brothers, Me. And my dog, Milo! ^_^ But today only got 4 humans, Dad is at China with his friends.

I'm not going out today, will be staying at home, i've got nothing to do apparently. I haven't bath, roflz. :/ After this post, i shall go bath and take pictures! :D Well, i was on Fana's blog just now, looked at her video, i went r-o-f-l man, lol. Sibeh funny loh, ha ha ha ha!

Pussymeaow lied to me, and i was stupid enough to believe him. You know what he said? :O
He said that Edusave's money can be used to buy food at the canteen, and i believe it.
I know i'm sucha fool and big time noob, to believe him. Actually i don't believe, but he kep convincing me, so i fell for it.
I asked Fana Granny this morning, and she said its fake, and she said i'm stupid.
And now, i'm asking myself, how can i let a cat fool a bird?! Ha ha ha ha!

Today's Apon's 18th, eh gemok, happy birthday! ;D