Crank crank~

• Firstly, i just met my boyfriend just now and he left for work already.
• Secondly, i'm much active on my Tumblr compared to Blogger, but that doesn't mean i will abort my Blogger. I will still update, but readers, to be frank, my Tumblr is much better, lmao -_-
• Thirdly, i super love my boyfriend and tomorrow is the 1st, im meeting Dion. Like finally baby!! :D
• Lastly, i'm very bored naow, shall do a quiz since its been quite sometime since i did one. <: Hehe, here i go! :D

Q : What's your name?

E : Emily.

Q : How many siblings you have?

E : 2, excluding me. ^.^

Q : Attached/Single?

E : Attached. :D

Q : What's your hobby?

E : Posting on Tumblr & adoring my boyfriend. <:

Q : Who's your bestfriend?

E : Fana Haron, Khamirul & Md Hazmi (:

Q : Who was your last ex?

E : Hazmi.

Q : Have you had a cousin/relative who loves and care bout you very much?

E : Zelda Yeeru. (See, i tiongxim hor siaoeh. lolololol!!)

Q : Who do you last talk to?

E : Realife = Brother. Msn = Apon.

Q : Who are you talking to now?

E : Nobody.

Q : When is your last time you ever had a kiss?

E : Just now :P

Q : Do you love someone right now?

E : Yes, of course!

Q: If you ever had a chance to turn back time, what will you do?

E : Grow much thinner, lolmaoz -.-

Q : What type of guy are you into?

E : Malays, Cute, Unique *smiles* And save the best for me. :)

Q : How many child do you want in the future?

E : 2. Either twins or boy & girl.

Q : What would you name them?

E : Norah/Isabelle for Girl. *i can't think any for boys.*

Q : What's your ambition?

E : To be a immigration officer, lolololmao.

Q : Who do you love most in your life now?

E : Md Hairul. :D

Q : Have you ever had a crush in school?

E : Haha yes. Duh -.-

Q : If yes, who are they? If no, skip.

E : Abdul Shakir for 2 years, it was a major crush back then. (the most memorable crush) Aidil, during Sec 2 camp which is only for 3 days 2 night. Khamirul Bff, during Secondary 3. Hazmi, during Secondary 4.

Q : What's your favourite brand?

E : I love Burberry alot and i yearn to have 1 of their item. *sad*

Q : Are you fat?

E : Yes, my tummy and my face. _1_

Q : Where do you usually go on the saturday nights?

E : Im a noobshit, i stays at home, ftw.

Q : Among your cousins, who's the pretty one?

E : Paternal side, Zelda Yeeru (she change hell lot. lol!) As for Maternal side, Nicole Decruz. :)

Q : Do you know what you want now?

E : Yes, a call from Takashimaya!!!!!!!

Q : Where are you going today?

E : No where. :)

Q : Where are you now?

E : Living room x)

Q : Are you bored?

E : Not really, cause im doing this, duh!

Q : Currently listening to?

E : Tic Tok - Kesha.

Q : Do you have pets?

E : Yes, a mix breed of Jack Russell and Terrier, its name is Milo! ^.^

Q : What's your last nightmare?

E : Sayang ignored me. :(

Q : Are you done with it now?

E : Yes, darling! :)

Something about you is so...

Okay, around 3pm i went to meet my boyfriend. Then Gummy came and we went to buy food. While they are talking, i was playing my game from my phone, Quadrapop. It was addicting. And because of the game, i fell asleep at 2am and it caused me to be yawning nonstop today, how stupid. But who cares? Fuck it. _1_

Gummy left and me and sayang talked about something. It was a serious topic and i felt alive. I mean, we were thinking about the same thing afterall. And i can feel my heart which is somehow in pain. Its the fact that not many relationships can be long lasting and to be frank, i don't dare, i don't want, i must not think far for our relationship. I'll just take what it gives and i appreciates you, and your everything. :')

We headed to Bangkit, i was quiet the whole journey, kinda stupid. But just listening to sayang talking is enough cause he always make me smile. Basically, he always make me happy, lol.

So headed home after the usual goodbye kiss.

Headed home, online. From today onwards, im going to force myself to slim down, and its a yes that i must slim before January.

Okay im done with my post, bye.

Birthday!

Okie dokie, today is my dearest Babymantha's sweet sixteen! ^.^ This post is dedicated to her and hope she will read it, cause i reckon that there'll be loads of dedications for her to read, haha! Hmm let's get to point, happy birthday sist, hope you will be happy with everything you have in your life. And also, good lucks in your N's result, hehe! :D I love you sist, mwarkz. :D

Okay, im updating my tumblr now, okie byeee. Oh and anyway, should i cut this hairstyle? :)

I find this hairstyle really hot, lol. But i love my long hair.... Argh, whatever -__- Hair can grow again, hahahahahaha! :D SHOULD I????????!!

Okay hello, first thing first, i've been neglecting my blogger and im much into Tumblr. Haha, and basically, i've been increasing my tumblarity, in 2 hours, my tumblarity soared up from 80 to 174!!! ISNT THAT LIKE W.O.W?! Haha, and i'm the #403 tumblrist in sinapore!! ^.^ Hehe.

Okay, i didn't met Sayang this morning as he wasn't at home. So yeap, i slept till 10.30 and my dog came in and messed with my stuffs, im very angry with it, and it is like keep on looking at me, wanting me to pamper him like how i always did, but meh, im angry with it today, just for today. ^^V Anyway, did i told you people that my dog bite the lipgloss that Fana bought for me?!! Gosh i was so upset and very angry with my dog, lolololmaoz.

I stayed at home for the whole day, and i swear it was god damn boring. Was texting with sayang and i got so happy to recieve his text message! :D I misssssss him already! ):

Was on msn with Victoria sist for the whole afternoon, <: Hehe, imma meet her up on the 5th! Yeayyyyy, can't wait, seriously xD Oh okay, tomorrow is the 29th!! Is Babymantha's sister's birthday!! Gonna post up a lil post for her tomorrow. :) And soon, 1st December will be here, and im gonna meet up Dion, probably hitting the town again, and then the 5th, meeting Victoria Sist for pedicure!!! And 9th, sayang's birthday!! :D :D :D HAHA.


Most probably im working during the month of December, hopefully it won't crash with the first week of December, x.x" If it does, IM GONNA BE OH-SO-SAAAAD. ): But fyi, im kinda excited for work!! ^.^ (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)


Tomorrow's sunday, most probably meeting sayang! ^.^ Yay, okay i need to list out those names who i want to meet badly, super super super super extremely badly!!!

They are : Fana, Sera, Emma, Victoria Sist, Esther Sist, Dion. Okay?!!! GO!

BYE! Follow me on Tumblr!! http://www.uglytruths.tumblr.com :D Love you all, bye!!

Courage.

Okay, im here to post again. Today i stayed at home for the whole day and it was boring. Had Mac just now, delicious :)

I've been spamming my tumblr since last night and my tumblarity stopped at 80. T_T Sad, lol. Hope i'll get more followers tomorrow then! ^.^

Headed to Teckwhye just now by 190. Then went back by 190 and 963. Was a waste of trip, fvcking wasted my time. _1_

Reach home, again spamming my Tumblr with pictures and texts. Sayang is having his off days tomorrow as well as Sunday! And when he told me this i was smiling to myself, heheh. Yay, can meet him tomorrow already, although im meeting him everyday, lolololmao. -.-

I feel abit strange and unhappy now, seriously, i need to cast that thought aside as it over already. Looking at one of my photograph taken with someone-who-use-to-be-very-important to me, i thought, people change, but pictures doesn't..

Argh, i think im going to sleep early tonight, im turning in at 10.45pm after texting sayang.

K chowz.

Ignoring all the nonsense

Okay hello, basically, i've just finished spamming my tumblr with David Desrosiers's picture, haha, im very active on Tumblr fyi. :) My tumblarity has reached 80 and i want it to be increasing.

Hmm i went to meet Sayang just now and we spend time together till 11+. He send me home and he left for work, and today he is knocking off early, yay!

Im currently on msn with Wenhui Baobei (: I miss her like one szb can, lol.

Hmm, im hungry, k la bye!

School!

Okay hello, im here to post. Shall talk about my day today yeap ^^

I woke up at 9am, called sayang. Then headed to bath. Then went downstairs to meet Sayang and we left at 11+. Headed to Pending, then he took 700 to work while i took 171 to Assumption Bustop. Met Vincent there ;)

Then Shane and co came, we walked up the hill and it was god damn hot and tiring, wtfffff. Then reach school, headed to Canteen. Then walk to outside Science lab, met Miss Lin. Then walk around. Took pictures of those changes in school, its like W.O.W okay. Lol.

Then met Mr Raj!!! ^^ As usual, we kept laughing and yessssss, im so happy to see him!! Hehe, then we met Mr Gary too!! We chatted for a while and then me and Yimling went to the canteen.

Then we left school and headed to my house. Then Yimling stayed till about 7+ and then i headed to Teck Whye while she left home. I had a great day with her anyway ;)

I miss sayang alot, and im going to update his blog after updating mine :) Hmm, im currently updating my Tumblr as well as blogging at the same time. And today i had 3 new followers!! Yipeeeee, so happy yknowwwwwwwwww. :B

And i had my tagbox back, kids coming back again i think, we shall see ;) Please lah, if you were to be so daring, why didn't you confronted me after seeing me in school? Ah hai, -.-

Okay, i finally had my blogskin editted nicely and thanks Victoria sist to help me design it. Hehe and i love it alot. Well after this post, imma shut my laptop down and then go and sleep. Cause i've been using the laptop since 12pm i think? :/ So yeah, my eyes are tired x.x"

Now im on MSN with Cammie & Yimling. Tomorrow is our school's Open House. Aisey man, i wanna go!! Probably going back with Yimling, Emmeline & Shane? :) Hmm, gonna ask Fana along, but i was wondering will she want to come along? :/

Okay, im done, byee!!!

Oh and anyway, dion's coming to singapore today!!! YAY, IMMA SEE HER ON 1ST! YAY! :D

Priority

Okay hello, im here to blog. Time check now is 1.43pm. Shall talk about my morning then. Woke up at 9.30am, texted Sayang, went back to sleep. Woke up again at 10am, then texted Sayang and he called. Bath, watch tv. Went down to look for him. :D

Met him, and we stayed till 11.15am, as he is late for work already. Got home, texted with him, online, update my Tumblr. And now im blogging while chatting with Lingsheng. :) Im feeling very hungry, feel like going to lepak today, maybe later on with Cammie. <:

Today is a boring day, meh. D: Takashimaya's staffs haven't call me, *sad* Okla, i hope i get that job tho, if not im going to rot already.

Okla, now on msn with Shiping & Carmen sist. :) Bye!

Unreasonable.

For this 2 days, you have been shouting at me on the phone, at home or whenever you sees me. Like hello?! I didn't did anything wrong yet you are shouting on the phone every now and then when you are talking to me. I am your daughter, not your slave or whatever. Do you even notice that you have been shouting, scolding me every now and then? Forget it if you don't, cause i doubt i ever exist in your eyes -.-

Urgh, forget about the 1st paragraph, im so furious about it. Okay shall talk about today. Waited for bus 700 and then alighted after 20 minutes later. Walked to Taka straight, headed to level 10 for interview. Filled up the form, she looked at my hair, everything and asked when can i start working. So she briefed me about the attire, my hair. She asked me to get a pair of black shoewear. And i told her to let me start work a.s.a.p. Lol!

So after that, headed to Ck Tangs, met up Ayun & his friend. Then after that left after talking awhile and his watch is with me right now. Might be meeting him later'on to pass it back to him. So after that, i took 190 back and met Cammie, headed to Bpp for lunch as i was hungry. :/

Had rice, then we walked around, then met Diyanah, so i left 'em and i went home with dinner packed. Reach home, online bathe. Here i am posting, time check now is 8.08pm.

I got no mood for anything right now, i am feeling really very fvcked up. K bye.

pull my trigger

I miss Emma, Sera. This 2 idiot, when am i going to see you huhhhhhh. Oh yeah, gonna help Emma to download songs, yay i got something to do now. k im lame.

today's plan is to go to town again. then off to have lunch with sayang. Im going to reach home as early as 6pm today, i hope. Hahhaha, im seriously worn out, but then i need a job badly, so i will still go today.

Time now is 12.50pm. Gonna download songs for Emma and head out after that. Solo today, lonely much, lolololz.

k la bye!

kiss and hugs

Okay hello! Second post, lol! Im here to elaborate my day today, it was a looooooooong day but yet fun! xD Okay, i woke up at 9.10am and texted Sayang. Then took my own sweet time to wake up fully and then bath, then i went to meet Sayang and off to Shehnaz's house for Drama meeting. And guess what?! The current president is not there! Which means he/she CMI!

So we end up ordering pizzas and watched Jennifer's Body & Paranormal Activity. It was gr8t, haha. And i think Megan is hot, but gay, lolz. :P Then off to Phoenix and met Fana Darling! Then we took 190 and alighted at Far East. Had KFC again, and we sat at the same spot again, lol.

Then we went off to Far East and then we made our way to Paragon. Then left Paragon and left for Cathay. Then walk back to Paragon, look for Sayang! Then after that headed to Taka and went to look for Sayang's mom and i was really very shy, and when i saw her, i smiled and i walkaway, lmao!

Then i plunged up my confidence and went to talk to her, she is really cool you know, haha! :) Then i asked her for infomations and then tomorrow's interview will be a sucess! ^^ Weeee, im so happy! Then we went to Bustop while Sayang is on the phone with me. :)

I told him everything and im kinda excited lah, hahahaha, lol! Then me and Fana took 190 back. And there's this 1 indian guy who is fucking hot! (K sayang, takmo jealous okay, i love you still.) Then Fana stood beside him and then i asked her to stand with me and she blamed me for pulling her away, lol. And the most funniest thing she said was..........

i didn't regretted standing beside him and this sentence made me laugh like one mad idiot, cause she sound so..... hmmm.... so.... girlish. LMAO! Hahahah! My bestfriend always, hehe!

So i got home, bath, online, and now im on msn with Victoria sist. Going to eat my hor fun now, and my Sayang is on the phone with me! XD

k bye!

Spammers suck.

I am fully amazed with all those tags you spammers had given me, a big thank you for making my day, well what i thought when i saw those tags was "semagat". It means hardworking for your info, <: Well, calling me a minah-lian? Okay, do i hang out with Matreps? Do i hang out with Ahlians and Ahbengs? Please, don't call me that, cause i am not, lol. _1_ for you okie.

EmilyMajorLoser? Wah that name very nice leh, thanks ah. Hahaha, but it suits your mother more, -.- Hmm first thing is i don't find myself a loser. Cause if i were to really want to spam a person, i will use my own name with my link down. And basically, i don't spam, i tag. Cause i find those people who spams are so no life-ers. (Does that word exist? Okay whatever, lol!)

Fingerfuck? Oh please, i just turn 16 yknow, i don't know all this stuffs, do you know? Post a video on how to do it and post it on Youtube.com lah, bodoh sundal! Haiyeeeeer!

Plastic surgery? Eh very expensive leh, plus my boyfriend likes me this way, don't believe ask him uh? Hahaha, i think you guys should, cause in case we were to find out who are you people are, better go and get a big ultra mole or something, hahahahahahahaha. Oh, im not trying to say how dai sai am i, im just suggesting yknow, don't call me Minah-lian leh, very hurting okay T.T

I think you people ain't dogs. You people are worst than animals, sorry to those who i offended. Seriously, i think dogs is better. I have a dog myself and i think you people are worst than dogs. Hmm.. Maybe beast? Okay i don't know lah, but all i know is, dogs are better you guys, so stop calling them dogs, friends ;)

My friends have seen my ugly side so im not afraid anyway. I deleted cause i don't want people to see that i'm so pop yknow, bahahahahaha! And ugly side of your/you people's is indeed wonderful and ugly enough, andddddddddd its a pity or i'd say lucky that you didn't put down your name, if not.. wah, cannot imagine sia!

Anyway, you guys hor make my tagbox very kecoh sia, fuhlemak pukimaaaaaaak. (Okay, what kind of language is that, lol) And please, don't insult my friends okay. And i didn't asked my Sister for help, she merely viewed my blog and left a note for you guys, isn't she sweet? :)

Now, my tagbox is gone, anything not happy call/text/msn me. Don't act one bloody fu.ck on the net okay, it won't do you good, cause you people sound very retarded cause you people are talking to yourself and you guys sound stupid. LOL.

And i thought you said you were older than me? Then why humji? Please lah hor, if you really bueykeyan with me, talk lah, don't tag. Older than me somemore, xiasuey siaaaa pukimak. Nabeh pubor, don't act big fuck on the net lah okay? How childish can you be?

And once again, im not affected with those spammings, it makes my day and sadly to say, i'm going on very strong with my boyfriend and we are not affected. In fact, you people always make us laugh yknow, hahaha! Okay whatever it is, if you all not happy with me, text/call/msn me, i will be waiting okay, don't settle thru net, cause you people are the losers, not me.

SO once again, BYE LOSERS! :)

I love Sayang!

Okay, finally free to post after having chatting with 6 person. Currently only chatting with Sayang as i went appearing offline. Sorry guys, cause i am kinda fickle minded, and i wanted to go offline but then i want to chat with Sayang at the same time, sooooo yeaaaaaaah, hahahaha.

Okay, today i went to meet Sayang! xD And today is his off day, and im very happy! Haha, cause i can spend time with him! Although i meet him everyday, lol! Okay, im being so hua-chi now, lmao. Slacked with him then Gummy came and look for us. Followed by Fana! Then we slacked and Fana left home and i left home for something.

Then met Sayang & Gummy at Sayang's house. See Gummy play game make me sleepy, lol! Haha, what i meant was im sleepy and bored. LOL. So i fall asleep, and i doubt Gummy and Sayang know that :/ Haha so yeah, after that we went to Block 132 (?) and slacked, after that went to buy dinner and then sayang walk me home. :)

Then reach home, eat, online. Now im going out to Bangkit and im bugging sayang to teman me, bahahaha! :P Okay la, bye!

Anyway, i love md hairul very much! xD

LOL. Okay, i can't stop laughing when is saw those quarrellings on the tagbox. Lol, let's see who's the casts alright, anyway i'd like to know who directed this show, cause its somehow real but too bad, i was with my boyfriend last night <: Hahaha, losers! :P This are the casts, the names is kinda unique, \m/

Passer
Ayun
mr lao ren
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passerbyyyy
Emily Loser
EmilySuck! :)
Anonymous

Well, i think the director suck in choosing those names, try out something new. Hmm maybe Dick? Tom? Harry? Sally? Maggie? Hahaha, all suits you all (y)

Well, Victoria sist, i wasn't online at all last night. Lol, you damn cute! & to Arian, thanks for helping, but then look, its funny right? Hahahahha! And one more funny thing!! There's only 3 person acting yknow, but yet there's so 8 cast.

You people is damn childish seriously, hmm lemme ban y'all and let's see what else can you do, haha LOSERS!

Oh fuck.

Okaaaaay, hello! Currently on msn with Cammie. Well, today was a boring day in fact, although i had fun with Victoria sist talking about some wannabes and she kept making me laugh, haha!

Well, i woke sayang up at 9am and i went back to sleep till 10.05am when sayang texted me. And im unable to meet him, so we decided to meet at night ;) Last night was otp with Sayang and i got to talk to his brother and his brother very cute! ^^ Hahah, and last night i had fun talking to sayang otp, ^^

Right now, i feel like not staying in contact with some of my friends already. Cause i am so fucked up with all of them. And now, i do believe that love is blind for god sake, wtf -.-

Oh anddd, i hope i'll be able to work with Sayang at Ck Tangs! :D Hehe, thanks sayang for helping me to ask for Vacancies ;)

Okay, im done, im very hungry naow. bb. :)

Fuck all this shits.

Just hung up with Ayun. Currently on msn with Esther & Cammie. On youtube listening to Yoga Lin's new song and its very nice and a touching song, its the 10th song on my playlist anyway fyi. :) Im going to download it later on, for sure.

Today i had a bad day, there's no more vacancies for Metro ; Town area but SengKang like so far from my house -___- So we aborted that idea, went to Toyrus, hope they will call us soon, as soon as possible. My leg was super painful, and it was a very tiring day.

I think im going to fall ill soon, like what Fana said. We walked under the rain, we kept walking and walking, super shag.

Went home after that, seriously no mood to talk or whatsoever. Took 190 with Fana, reach home with dinner packed ready in my hands. Bath, online.

Im sorry to those who were with me today, especially Sayang.

I didn't thought that i can affect you. I didn't mean it, but.. haiz, sorry dear. :(

blame it on me, i'm born like this, im not a good girlfriend.

I know you won't read this and neither will you understand. Can you please stay out of my problem?! You are such a spoiler, i seriously hate you. Why must i see you everyday?! Fuck all this shit, i hate it when you stirs up a matter and then tries to be the peacemaker. All because of you, i hate going back! You are driving me mad, please, i want to grow up soon. Fuck all this shit, fuck you! Please don't abuse your rights okay, i don't give a fucking damn, urgh. Irritating bitch.

Long day

Alright, im here to blog about yesterday, shall not waste time and let's start! Hmm, its a long day actually, but i had fun afterall, wahaha! :P

18th November 2009 (Cammie's 14th!)
Went out at 12.30pm, headed to Pending and met Fana. Then we walk to 190 bustop, while walking, we had a chat and as usual, we laughed like nobody's business, haha! Then we took 190 to Phoenix and took 160 to Jurong East. Then reach already, headed to walk around, then when the clock showed 1.59pm, i started to panic and that Fana is still choosing food in 7eleven and guess what? SHE DIDN'T BUY AT ALL, DUMB SHIT! Lol! Then we headed to Cpf Building. ;)

Scanned ezlink card, then headed to Level 3, very very stress but excited, then we headed to Kelly Services. And filled up forms and we were given a job at Watson as Gift Wrapper. When they told me, the first thing i thought in my mind was "Wtfffff?!!!!" Then we were given time to think about it. And both of us was like, Watson?!! And we decided to give it a try ;)

So after that, we trained to Orchard. There's this family, and the son is crying like nobody's fucking business, and he even screamed. And both of us were laughing nonstop and that Fana so tak tau malu and shouted "shhhhh!" And i was indeed very very paisey, lolz. Idiot cb, lol! Then we alighted and we were stucked in ION as its raining very heavily. So we took a walk inside.

Then we headed to Paragon drenched. But it was fun tho, haha! :P Then we headed to the toilet first, and then to 1st floor (?) Didn't saw Sayang, we left. But we were stucked! And sayang texted me and and met him at the Taxi stand with his friend. Walked to Lucky Plaza, met Cammie and Gummy there ;)

We ate, then Sayang went back to work, and then Fana went home and me, Gummy & Cammie left for Wisma Atria. Walked around, didn't manage to get what we wanted at Forever21 as it not sold in singapore. So we walked around, took picture too <: Then we walked to Paragon back to find Sayang! :)


After meeting him, we went to walk around, then very quickly, its 8pm. And we met Sayang and we headed home. Bloody 190 bus is so damn cold, reached home, bath. Talk otp with Sayang till 3am. He told me stories and it was very very funny but then very sweet too! Then we hung up and i went to sleep straight.


Today
Woke up at 8am, called Sayang, woke him up and i went to sleep back. Woke up again at 9.30am, then bath, ate breakfast, told parents about the Watson job offer, and both of them decided to let me try out the jobs at Paragon, which is so near to Sayang's workplace, cause its the same building, duh -___- LOL. And i got sayang to help me and we're going for interview tomorrow! ^^ Yay!


And Kristlyn came to my house today! ^^ I miss her like hell, the last time we met was like months ago!! T.T Haha, and i cooked her noodles, once in a lifetime okay, cause im a very lazy person, hahahaha! :P She stayed for like 1 hour plus and she left for her boyfriend's house. Okay, i got 2 pictures and here you go ;)




And right now, im texting with Sayang. I miss him so much! :( & the picture with sayang right, i look so ugly -.- okla! im otp with him now! :D & yeaaaaah, i hope sayang love his blog! ^_^

BYEEEEEE!

Stupid blogger ain't letting me upload pictures :( So i shall post without picture okay. :) Basically this post is for my dearest sista, Cammie ^^

Its her 14th birthday today and i hope that she will stay happy with everything, everyone around her. And i will also hope that she will be able to excel in her studies in the future. I've just got close with her due to lepak sessions with Ayun and co. And she hated me for my fierce face last time, *sad* lol. But right now, we are oh-so in good terms. ;)

friends may not be for you always, but i believe that me, diyanah and gummy will always be there for you. life has its ups and down, learn to live it and you will be much stronger!

14 year old already, big girl now! (Omg, i sound like a mother, lolololol!!) well, in other words, happy birthday cammie! i love you! ;) hehe, see you later on at town <: & oh, its pink! Your fav, mwahahahah! :P

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imma hit town later on with fana. going for a interview session, *happy* hahaha, and after that meet up with cammie and all and then fetch sayang! :) YAY!

And now i shall go and get a bath and then meet sayang again :) I miss him already! *sad*

k la, byeeeeeeeeee!

laughters

Okay hello! Im here to post about my bbq last night, i forgot to take pictures last night yknow, what the hellz. *sad* Okay, hope this time i won't navigate to another page while posting halfway cause the fvcking blogger don't save it for me, so bad. *sad again*

Went to look fo Gummy around 11+ after bathing and got ready. Went to 120 and meet him. He puffed a lil and we headed to Senja to meet Iskandar. Took everything and train back to Pending. Then we headed to Cck by bus 190.

Reach Cck already, bought stuffs and headed back to Pending by Lrt. Then i met Cammie under my block and headed to my house. Rested for awhile, planned where to go. So we decided on taking the cake first, so we walked there, reach already take the cake and off to Mac for my lunch. :)

Then saw Shakir and Jenica, catch up a lil, told Shakir alot of things and then we headed back to my crib while Cammie went to look for Gummy for L4D. Haha. So headed to my crib, put down the cake and we left to Pending. Met Fana there and chit chat a lil. Then Fana and I headed to Town. While Shakir and Jenica don't know go where, lol.

Took 700 bus there, and alighted after Far East. Then walked to Paragon and looked for Sayang while me and Fana kept blabbering nonsense, lolz. Hahaha. Then met up with him already, headed to Taka. Then we took 700 back. The trip back to Pending suck to the core, make me fvcking stress and i really felt very very fvcked up. And i wanted to sleep but then loads of calls kept coming in, lol. Nevermind, once in a while ;)

Reach already, Emma meet Fana while me and Sayang headed to the Bbq pit. Saw Rena and went towards her, hugged her, talk a lil, then off to do my stuffs. Then Me, Cammie, Gummy and Ayun was somehow stress and we were cursing people, lololol! Then my dearest Ayun went to Bangkit to buy Ice for all of us, thanks sayang and sorry to see your perspiring as though you walked under the rain :(

Then started to Bbq, and people came by groups and groups. Went up to my crib with Kamilah, Fadhila and Emmabel. Took the birthday cake and dumb Emma thought my dog was not locked and she didn't dared to come in, scardy cat. HAHAHAHA. :P Then went down, sang birthday song, and then distributed the cake, its OREO and its very delicious, hahahaha!

Then people started to aim me, Gummy's sister started first, but she was nice enough and very gentle, haha! I like her, ^^ HAHAHAHA. Then i was talking halfway and Alas came to me and pour the flour on my head. And then Emma or Gummy came and pour even more and it went to my mouth and i vomitted, eeeew. Lol!

It was fun, but then i look very white like a ghost, plus i dont have my rubber band with me, lol. So i was the witch of the night, like what Gummy and co said. Evil them, hahaha! And Ricarno came too, his hair very pom-pom like. LOL. Then we bbq and some left due to Probation and stuffs and leaving Ayun, Cammie, Gummy, Syakir (sec 2), Chipmunk, Ira, Me. So we bbq-ed till around 11 near to 12am. And after Pozy came and i headed home, sorry guys :/

Then i headed home, first thing is to bath and wash my hair as though i've not wash for 4 days. Hahaha, and then after bathing, unwrapped my presents and i love all! ^^ But there is earrings, and sadly i don't have any ear holes, but i'll still keep it with me! ^^V

Then after that, around 1215, Sayang called me. I can't sleep and as well as him so we talked till 3+. I had fun talking with him and then we hung up. Slept after that.

Till 9.30am, suppose to wake sayang up at 9am but i overslept, lol! ;P Then i texted him and went to wash up. Then bought breakfast for Granny and Bro. Then i went to bath and headed downstairs to meet up with Sayang ;)

Till about 12+ , he left for work after sending me home. Then i headed back home, online for awhile and went to sleep till 6+ i think? Then woke up, online, help Fadhila to change her blogskin and ate dinner. Then sayang texted me. :)

And here i am blogging. I didn't hit town just now cause i can't go out :/ So yeah, stayed at home uh, sorry sayang! :( Hmm, imma hit town tomorrow with Fana for sure, going for interview. Might be working at CK Tangs building. Near sayang's workplace!! ^^ Yay, hahaha! :P

Can't wait for tomorrow, meeting Sayang before he leaves for work again! :D He wants to meet me later on, but then i don't know can anot :/ *sad*

Im on msn with Fana and Cammie right now. Okie, waiting for Sayang's text now, bye! Time now is 8.15 and Sayang knock off already, yipeeeeeeeee! :D :D

too much

i just met ayun baby just now and now im missing him like hell. imma hit town later on to look for him, hope mommy allows me. i had a long talk with him last night and he said its very fast. haha, cute i know [:

i just navigated to another page without saving and i have to RE TYPE everything. fuck. _1_ lol.
nevermind, i shall do it later on, i promise *winks*

i miss hairul aka ayun now. alot alot alot. his off day is this friday, yay ^^ hehe.

k la, bye!

im sixteen today.

okay hello people. i turn sixteen today. it was exciting to see those texts messages coming in and cause my phone to jam like hell. haha k, i know my phone budget :( lol. but still, my favourite phone okay, hmph! hahah! :P

Okay, i would like to congrat Syazwan for being the 1 person to wish in advance and Rena to text me at 12am sharp. ^^ And i would like to thanks Cammie and Gummy for their post on their blog, not forgetting Yimling's post too, ^^ And i would like to thanks who stayed till 12am on msn to just wish me happy birthday. ^^

And most importantly, sayang! Thanks for waking up so early for me this morning. Was very touched and see you getting stress bout my pit, seriously thanks alot, i love you! :D I'll see you later on okay sayang? ;)

Hmm, can't get to sleep last night, kinda no mood for no reason, stayed awake till 3am and then finally i can sleep, before that i kept thinking that imma die on my birthday. lolz. i know im stupid, rofl. So slept like finally....

Woke up around 8.30 by daddy's shouting happy birthday, wake up and buy breakfast for me. LOLOLOLOL, so woke up, brush teeth, everything. Then went to buy breakfast for dad, mom, granny and me. And today i ate breakfast okay, lol. Okay weird, then chatted with dad and mom. I love chatting with 'em cause they always either make me laugh or mad. lolz.

Hmm, right now on msn with Cammie sista ;) Hmm waiting for Gummy's call now. Cause we have something on, hehe ^^ Okay, hmm ohya, i nearly forgot something!!

The bbq location is changed, from Bukit Panjang Park to Block 121 Pending Road. Do take note, you can alight from Pending station and cross the road and walk in. Don't know? Find yourself, haha, bastard me. Just text me alright ;)

Hehe, okay im done!! ^^ IM SIXTEEEEEEEEEEN, YAY!

Thanks Yimling!

Alright, i wanna say thanks to Yimling for her sweet dedication on her blog for me, and she posted my favourite picture yaknow, haha. Thanks girl, hmm how can you dislike me for liking Shakir at the same time as you! *heartbreak* Haha, that was like 4 years ago man?! Shan't talk much about her post aye, you want, you read. In other words, Yimling, Thanks! Love ya! Wait for me, im turning SIXTEEEN! HAHAHAHAHA.

Went to meet Ayun, Iskandar & Ilham under my block, and Ayun wanted to scare me with this lil stupid bomb thing, lolz. Then we went to idk block and slacked. Then around 6+, me, Ayun & Ilham headed to Bangkit while Iskandar head home to shit. Haha. Lol.

Then off to bangkit with Sayang while that Ilham went somewhere -___- Weirdo. LOL. Then bought food for Granny and brother. Then walk back to my block. Met Iskandar and i headed home.

Now, im waiting for sayang to go home and then call me up! ;) Hehe, so yeah, ciaos! :D

And please take note, my bbq location is changed. Please do take note. I will contact you guys by tonight, im sorry for the kecoh-ness or whatever ya call it. ;)

Bahahahaha, tomorrow im sixteen, sayang, wait for your turn k, lolz. :P

everything just for you.

okay hello! okay, shan't waste time and get started with last night ;) okay go.

was otp with sayang, then we end up msn-ing. then chatted till about 12+ and i went to sleep. and around 1+ shakir and hadi called me up. and fuck! they make me angry, lol. and then i went back to sleep.

woke up around 11am and didnt want for work as it was late and i didn't call up granny too. hehe, so i went to wash up, bath and sayang called. met him at pending and met gummy and ilham. went to ilham's crib outside. then they were kickboxing etc. took video and it was hilarious, haha.

then iskandar came. and headed to bangkit with sayang and iskandar. headed to wendy's, and then went to look for iskandar's earpiece. and fucking shit, i got "molested". nabeh, cb, your father die. _1_ for you pubor! then walk back to ilham's block while iskandar went for some birthday party.

stayed there till 2+ and they walk me home and they left for 139 i think. and now im at home, freaking hungry. :( lazy to cook, brother's sleeping, granny's out. i want to look for them uh, but then im wondering will my mom allow.. *sad*

haha, i will ask her later on then. ;) tomorrow is my birthday, like finally! i can't wait, hehe. <: finally i'll get to see those who i've not met since school closed, people like yimling, rena, tina, vivien, yingying etc. yay! :]

k la, i stop here, bye! :)

Till i heard about it.

Okay hello readers! Been wondering, everyday the number of readers that reads my blog are 50 and above and yet not much tags. :( Kinda disappointing yknow, lol. Hahah! K la, emotional much -.-

Sayang texted me when he woke up, real pig. Haha, it was around 2.30 then. Then msn with Gummy. Then texted Ayun. Then met them around 3+ under my block, then Iskandar came. Then Iskandar left shortly after, then left me, gummy and ayun.

Talked, slacked, till 6pm and bought dinner and home. Just hung up with Ayun and Gummy. 3 of us is very stress now, im kinda pissed off uh.

I hate selfish and lazy people. *angry face* fvck! :@

Okay, back. (: Look at this! LOL. Justin Bieber leh! Hahahaha! Cute uh Ayun, lolz. -.- Those who watch this video, please do comment! :)

I love you

Okie hi. I can't believed that i only posted once yesterday, omg. I think i forgot to or too lazy to. Hahahahah, k la, now i post about last night okie. ^-^

Went downstairs to meet sayang around 9+. Then after that he passed me something and i thought it was something major, haha. But it was sweet uh, lolz. So we talked till 10.30 and he send me home. Lol. Reached home, wanted to eat dinner but then lazy too cook, so forgot about it, lol. Chatted with Cammie, Gummy, Huzai and Hazmi.

Then texted with Ayun and left to sleep afterthat. :) Great night, lol. Hahahaha. Woke up around 10.30pm, shag to the max and today there's no renovation going on!! Hahaha, i had a gr8t sleep this morning, woke up, bath, chatted with Elysa Ciner. <:

Then webcammed with Dion. Then now im on msn with Gummy. I haven't ate since yesterday's Fishball $1.20 yknow. ): I dont know what to eat and im also lazy to cook. :D

Hmm, anyway, to the emily tan hui yi: Fuck you, use my name use Emily. to tag lah, i don't tag with my full name. And please, Ayun is only my close friend, and if you love him that much, tell me okie. I help you tell him. And please stop being lame and tag with my full name, douche.

I say again, Ayun is only my close friend. Kthbai. :D

Oh and before that, those who are invited to my Bbq on Monday, please do take note that the Bbq will starts at 6pm. So if you guys were to come before 6pm, there'll be no food but to go to Bpp for snack. Bahaha, so yeah. See you guys soon, and once again, its Bukit Panjang Park okie. Reach already text me. Don't call, prepaid low dok. :P Thanks! Ciaaaaaaaaoz!

If it was easy.

Okay hello, im back! Hmm shall talk about last night aye. Was feeling down last night and have no mood to blog about my day, sorry yeap. Hmm okay, last night was okay, especially nearly to 12am. Hahahah! :P

I am no longer single, hehe yay! ^^ Okay back to topic, slept around 12+ and then woke up around 9+. Was fed up with the renovation next door, fuck! I hate the sounddd~ So noisy, i can't even sleep for long! :X

So woke up, and then texted with Mr Fav and went to bath. Then went online for awhile and then went downstairs to meet Ayun! *wide smile* Then went down already, stupid him never eat panadol, haiz. Then Gummy came.

Then talk for awhile and Ayun left for work and leaving me and Gummy. Then Iskandar came, and then headed to Ten Mile. Then met up with Cammie, Jeni and Diyanah. :) Then off to Sheng Shiong.

Then bought stuffs, had fun and had hide-and-seek game with Jeni and Diyanah, haha! Then after that, headed to Iskandar's crib. Then off to slack for awhile and left to Bpp. Paid for the cake, its oreeeeeo!! YAY. HAHAHA. Then off to Macdo, then slacked till 4+ and bus home with Cammie.

Reach home, online, ;) Hmm, feel like changing my blogskin. Im so sick and tired of this skin already, meh. :/ Sian sianz. :(

Hmm, can't wait for Monday to come. Tomorrow going to Novena with Cheryl! And then Sunday working with grandparents, and then monday, oh yeeeeeeaaaaaaaahhh. My day!! HAHAHA!

Wanna wish Kak Ilah & Yimling a happy 17th and 16th birthday! Hehe, hope you two stay happy forever! & not forgetting, Carmen sis, happy 14th birthday (?) Haha! Love you three! :D

And yesterday was the 12th, for this relationship, i just want us to be happy and everything goes smoothly for us from today onwards. Argh, faster text me sayaaaaaaaaaaang, your break time start already! :P Hehe!

K la, i stop here. Baibai~

everything

this picture relates to you. fuck, why am i like this again. when can i be really really happy...

One love, one heart.

Time check now is 12.24pm. Just hung up with Gummy. We are talking about tomorrow's sheng shiong trip. Im right now at Novena alone, mom headed to the airport to fetch dad & uncle. Very bored now, listening to Justin's song, gosh i think im in love with his song, lol. -___-

Okay, just 1/2 hour to go and i'll see the usual customer from Radin Mas Primary. Haha, bunch of cute lil kiddos. They are fun people, somehow lame too. Lol, hahaha. And they thought i was only 13. God damn shit. -.-

Hmm, kinda bored yknow. ): Can't really wait for Monday to come. But wait, let's see. Today im at Novena. Tomorrow Sheng Shiong trip. Saturday, heading to novena for Cheryl's E61. Sunday, Novena again. And monday, woohoo, special day! Its party timeeee! Whahaha! :P

Can't wait to see them coming again, shall take hellotsz of photos. Hmm, last night i cried, and my cramps hurts like hell, nabeh. Why must girls be girls? LOL.

Hmm, got nothing to post uh. Post later on yep. ciaos!

Something about you.

Alright, hello! Im back home after a long day at Novena. Hmm tomorrow again, going to Novena with Mom. Sounds fun, but its boring although there is a computer for me, lol. My mom is not as cool as ma friends, she don't joke with me. *sad*

So today, i had a long chat with a friend of mine, i mean my bestfriend. Hmm, was kinda glad that we are able to chat like normal already, and the advantage of being bestfriends is that i can disturb him with all i want, mwhahahah! Seeing him irritated makes me happy, you wait only Po*k, i know you reads my blog, watch outtt!

Dont really have the mood to post right now, my back hurts like helll and i am kinda sick. Lol. Everytime like that, i think im going to be a sicko soon, lol k lame -___- Alright.

Currently on msn with Cammie, Fana & Ayun. K la, i stop here, tomorrow post again. Oh ya, i got something to show you all. Hold on....

Look at that Shakir's face, hmm i kinda miss this dog and the others too, hope to see them all on Monday then!! ^-^

Till here, ciaos!

brand new day

Last night was terrible. The whole block of mine went black out and i was on the phone with Sera. Luckily man, but then i was alone at the kitchen and i was fucking shocked. Then i quickly ask fatty to come teman me, lolllll. Haha, then walk to living room, sat down. Fugging black, i mean dark. LOL.

Then Gummy called, then we hung up. Then Mr Favourite texted me, cause he stay around me too, then he was asking whether got black out anot, hahaha! Then after the lights came back, we had fun talking among the siblings and we slept around 12am? Lol.

Then woke up around 9am, Fadhila called. Then woke Eugene up for AIP. Then went back to sleep again. Then woke up, bath, headed to Novena with Mom.

Then had breakfast, and Mr Favourite texted me, hehe. :P Then i think he 4pm will text me again! xD

Just hung up with Akif, hmm. Kinda miss them ah, but nevermind. Tak original perh, haha. I prefer my current clan, lol!

K la, those who i've invited to ma birthday, please confirm with me by thursday. And those who i gave a miss call, call me back oke, cause you are invited, bahahahha! :P Okay, bye!

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Okay, i got this photo from Tina's blog. Was really missing the past. Last year's 11th November, we were getting ready for our 1 week Yunnan trip. ;) It was fun, exciting and amazing and i can't wait for it. As the weather there is absolutely cool and different from Singapore's.

I remember me getting down the plane when i reached and the feeling is like shiok gile babi! Haha. Shopping at Lijiang Old Town. Bargaining, laughing, singing school songs, national song.

It was a fun experience, and my birthday, i had my birthday cake which is about 2 palms high and it was kind of cute with alot alot of creams -.- and it tastes somehow weird. hahaha, but i still appreciate JJC's idea. 8) Thanks people!

I miss the fun-ness, i want to go again. jom? hahahahha, k kidding.

da la, now on facebook chat with gummy bro, whahah! BYE! 1 more hour to go!

love you

Okay! Hello again, just came back from 137 ^^ Ayun & Iskandar send me home and they went off to Bpp i guess? Hmm, shall talk about it okey. Went to Pending and the super nice iskandar came and bring me there, when i said i know how to go there, lol.

So went to Pending, bought Greentea then walk to 217. While walking, stupid iskandar disturb me, grrr! Then went there, met Gummy, Cammie and Ilham. Iskandar was using da lappy, Gummy was punching the sandbag, Ilham is abusing his nephew (LOL) and then Cammie and I was just sitting there. Then Ilham's niece came along and sat down with us.

Then i tied her hair and i got so happy about it cause Gummy said it was cute, wahaha! Then after that we went under Ilham's block. Then lepak for awhile, Iskandar left for Outram. Then Ilham, me, Cammie & Gummy went for Bangkit. And Ilham blanje dok! Hahaha, thanks ah Dragonball! ^^

Then after that walked to 137 and meet Ayun & Zul. So sad at first cause someone merajok with me just cause ma ex talked to me last night. Then when he is alone, i went to pujok him, and yes! He smiled! ^^ And i was so happy! Hahaha, wakwakwahz.

Then after that Zul left and came Ilham's friends. And i get kinda irritated with guys keep looking at me, like as if they are gonna eat me up. I told Cammie and Gummy about it. Lol! Then Gummy and Cammie left to play with Sherry. So i was the only girl and then after awhile, Ayun and Iskandar send me home. :) How nice, wahaha!

Then reach the lift there, there was a coakcroach near my leg and i screamed and both of them was shocked. LOL. Then i went home, online, blog. :)

For everyone's info, im not a hongster okie. Don't come and tag me and say i hongster lah hor, i tiongxim that person, that person also never tiongxim kamlan? Correct anot? :)

Yay, Iskandar's helping me to book da BBQ pit soon! Yay, and then Friday sheng shiong trip with Iskandar, Ayun, Gummy and Cammie ^-^ People like them make my day, esp Mr Favourite. Bahahahahha! K shut up.

Bbq on my birthday, those who i invited, come okay. Those who i didn't, real sorry.. I got my own reasons, plus i also know that you won't come. So yeah, sorry. :)

Right now, those who are really my true friends, those who are not, i know very well. Those who cares for me are Ayun and co. Thanks guys, seriously, i was really happy when im with you all.

As for the past, when im with the usuals, i made it so un-original. Cause one of you somehow tried to hint me that when im in, im not original. And it hurts much.

Try to be me, think of how will i feel. :) I got it thru cause of Ayun and co. Thanks ah guys, see you all soon. :)

Ignorance

Okay morning. Right now on msn with Cammie Sista ^^ Going to lepak with them later on. Last night was kinda okay, we spoke really in a very calm way, and surprisingly, i didn't cried. I believed your reason, i really do, but then you are too selfish towards me and you hurt me very very badly. I cried, i skipped my meals, i had sleepless nights, its not fair.

So after he went offline, i felt better and happier. But then my favourite is down, for few days already, kinda sad yknow. ): Ahlala, cheer up lah, i can't put your name here, neither can do i put down "him" or "her". I hope you know this post is for you and cheer up sayang! ^^

Was on msn with Ira Meimei, as usual, we both got to laugh together. And she again, talked about how i eat -___- Ahlaaa, i only drop vegetables infront of you mah, haiya! Then she call me small girl ): Lol, okay lah, its fine. Only she can call me small girl, nyehehe! :P Imma meet her up soon, i miss her so much!

Today is only Tuesday. Gonna book the bbq pit tomorrow i think, hope it will be sucess cause its kinda last minute. ): Gonna head to Sheng Shiong with Ayun and the rest. Gonna have fun for sure, and i miss them already! Later! Weeeee, yay! ^-^

Time now is 10.57am. Gonna bath, wash my bedsheets, take my own sweet sweeeeeeeet time and then walk to 217 to meet Ilham and the rest. With Cammie there too! Hahah :D

Oke, im kinda bored right now. I just can't stop thinking of last night. I dreamt of my favourite, and then i bang my head to my cabinet (real life) and in my dream, my favourite laughed at me and sayang me. Very hilarious, and now my head hurts like hell _1_

But nice dream anyway, and good news is, today is a brand new day, imma move on, move to another step! Yeaaaaaah, so proud of myself *winks*

Im scared.

i had a great day at Novena today. American Idol, Malay Series on Suria, Amazing Race, I Wanna Hold Your Hand. Pizzas, Pink Dolphine. Gonna grow fat again! :@ Haha, nevermind.

Reached home around 9.30pm, before that went to Westcoast, Bangkit then to 215. Then home. Reached home, as usual, checked out 2 blogs. Was very very shocked to see him tagging it.. I admit, i still rawr him, but i need to move on.. Argh. :'(

Now the time is 9.42pm. And, my heart is pumping at the fastest speed it can be. The anxiety is back to me, like how i first fell in love. My eyes are stucked to the bottom right corner. God, by imagining that, im scared of my tears falling.

Your scoldings, your F words hurts me like hell. You made my heart broke into thousand pieces, yet each pieces of my heart kept thinking of you causing me to hurt. Cause i forced myself to not miss you, not think of you. But whenever i tries, it just hurts. And now it still hurts cause im forcing myself..

Argh, i got no idea what is wrong with me, or rather us too. My dear love, i admit i still love you alot like how i do, but its fading already, it is really fading, but in a very very slow speed. Everything seems to be okay now, is god playing with my heart? My tears? No no.. I don't want it to be..

Why, why must this happen to me, im god damn stress right now. I feel like crying like how i did for you on the 5th Novemer... :'(

That was your favourite picture, i don't know why i posted it too... *cries*

Reminiscence.

Okay hello! Im right now at Novena with mom <: Hmm, my favourite just texted me, im so happy! Gummy, Ayun & Iskandar is out to Mustafa now, and also Ilham. And sorry ah Cammie, i buey you, i can't go out ah, i have to go out with my mom. D: Sorry dear, will meet soon okie, hehe.

Hmm, the reason why i posted the picture of our classrooms is because i misses my classroom. I miss the way we run from class to the basement to the toilet and skip lessons for 1/2 hour. And yes, i misses social studies, english and mother tongue lessons. K nevermind, forget it. Haha!

Currently on msn with Cammie sister <: Hmm go home then blog la k. I lazy now.

Bye! & i miss that favourite boy of mine, wahehe! ^^

Running

Okay hello, second post. Im kinda addicted to Flat's blogsong, its very nice and its very meaning for me, as in before i went to lepak with Ayun. But now i've reached home, i don't think that song elaborates about me and ma ex. Don't ask why, only Ayun and me knows why, bahaha! :P

Okie, went to Bangkit around 1+. Headed to Wendy's then off to 272 to meet up Emma darling. Miss her so much, wakwakwa! (: Greeted her mom, and then watch the kompang boys performed, and its very nice, but let me thought of ma ex. Okay shut up. Move on!! Then after that walked to 139 to meet Ham and Ayun.

Lepak, talked, then Ayun went home for awhile and Aryna & Mirrah came along. So we laughed and talked, then Ayun came along. After that Aryna & Mirrah left. Then Ham left, leaving me and Ayun that idiot, okay kidding. Bahaha! ^^

So, as per normal, he disturbed me all the way, malu malu, shy shy! Hahahaha! He told me alot of stuffs that i didn't know, and i was real angry when he told me, but its okay, da over. Now, i wanna focus on the replacement boy, *smile* kan Ayun? Hahahaha! Then wanted to wait for Gummy, but then i need to go home. So slacked till 5pm and then i went home.

Home, verbal fight with mom, here am i online. I've not been eating since yesterday, i didn't ate anything today and im not feeling hungry. 50 kg, 45 coming? Oh yeaaaaaaaah, in total thanks to you, imma lost 10 kg since 5th November! Thanks ah, this is the advantage, disadvantage is that i need to cope with your memories with me.

I like this song alot, will post the lyrics too. Its flat's blogsong, i like it alot. ^-^V



We were picture perfect
Flawless on the surface
We were walking on a straight line

We were automatic
You seemed so fanatic
I was confident
And white eyed

Tough times watched us come undone
You found someone

Tell me why i think about you
And tell me if you think about me
And tell me when you touch her
Is it really love or just another fantasy
And tell me does she make you laugh
And tell me does she make you move
And tell me does she get you
Take away your breath
Just tell me that it can't be true
What i found out about you

It feels like a nightmare
To see your hands in her hair
You seem happy ever after

I'm stuck in denial
I can't fake a smile
You play innocent
It's so damn hard
So down
I want back what's mine
Can we rewind?

Tell me why i think about you
And tell me if you think about me
And tell me when you touch her
Is it really love or just another fantasy
And tell me does she make you laugh
And tell me does she make you move
And tell me does she get you
Take away your breath
Just tell me that it can't be true
What i found out about you

So much for happy endings
So much for miracles
So much for trusting you
It-it feels so typical
I miss you
I miss you

We were picture perfect
Flawless on the surface
We were walking on a straight line

Tell me why i think about you
And tell me if you think about me
And tell me when you touch her
Is it really love or just another fantasy?
And tell me does she make you laugh
And tell me does she make you scream
And tell me it's over
It's only a dream
What i found out about you

And tell me does she get you
Take away your breath
Just tell me that it can't be true
What i found out about you

And tell me does she get you
Take away your breath
Just tell me that it can't be true
What i found out about you

The red ones is to ask you. The green ones is how i fucking felt when i recieved your text. Im sorry that i beared grudges, but im a girl, i got limits and feelings too mister, no hard feeling.

last night.

Okie hello. It was kinda hard last night to fall asleep but i managed to do it afterall. Was having conference and had a great time. Was talking about food last night with ayun, god damn funny. Haha, got me laughing like hell. Then we talked in chinese, and their accent is very cute de lor, haha! And and, Iskandar too! I lurbe your english ah, "sheng shong". Haha!! :D

They made me day. I was alone at the 12th floor and Ayun & Emmabel called/texted me, asking me to stop waiting and go home. But i was very reluctant to, so Cheryl came and looked for me. Thanks for your shoulder girl, i appreciate much. Was crying and crying and when gummy reached, i stopped crying and my eyes are so puffy like -.-

That was yesterday. I hope today i won't cry anymore, i must be strong! (: Hehe, imma plan a bbq for my birthday and the guestlist too. Last minute much i know, and i must get my mood back for my birthday although im facing fucked up stuffs now.

And, im now missing you, argh. Get off my mind will you?! :(

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Sorry for this extra post, you can choose to skip it. Im feeling damn emotional right now, but hopefully my tears won't drop. I was bloghopping and i kept hopping to those who are attached and quarreling in a rabak way. But i see their partner tagging them saying that although they fight, they still trust each other. And they will make it last no matter what.

After reading this, i looked back at our relationship. I seriously felt very sad, im missing you now, and my tears are coming out. Boy, i trusted you all the way, and maybe they way i texted you, you don't understand and you thought that i didn't trusted you.

You are still on my mind, when i was at the 12th floor yesterday, i kept crying and crying. I held our picture near to me, afraid of losing it, i held the dairy book very tightly, i cried and cried. How i wish we wasn't over, how i wish that i got you to cut the birthday cake with me. You are everything to me, but now, im trying to be strong but i just can't.

Hope you will find a better girl, cause the problem between us is communications. Im willing to go for it, talk it out. But you don't want to, i really waited for you yesterday, you can ask Ayun and the rest. They persuaded me to go home/leave that place, i just don't want to..

I miss you, alot my dear.. *cries*

Moving on.

Okie dokie, hello readers. I know you people misses my post especially my tx readers, bahah! Many things happened these few days, buckets of tears will be appearing if i were to collect. Nah, kidding.

Hahaha, im being so emotional uh, for this whole week. and damn it, i wasted alot of time too, and i lost 5 kg, like cool or what? cause i skipped my meals every now and then. ;]

Once lovers, once bestfriend. Never ever regretted, its over between us. Perhaps we wasn't good enough for each other, although i still love you alot, but i have to move on. We can't go far, and we have to stop just 10 days before our 3rd monthsary. People say if we were to pass the 3rd month, 5 month will not be a problem. After 5 month, we can last for long, very long.. I'll not forget you, there's alot of wonderful memories between us. Takecare, always here for you, your bestfriend. :)

Today i went to 12th floor, stayed till 5pm till gummy, ayun, iskandar asked me to stop waiting and leave. So we went to slacked downstairs, and then me and cheryl went to have mac. I had my first meal for today, but i only ate a lil. Better than not eating okay, 5kg mind you!!! So after eating, left plaza. Guess who i saw!! Izad, mwahaha! Called him and waved to him, and left. Lame much i know, lols. Left for petir, cheryl lrt back while i walked to 139 to meet up Gummy, Ayun and Iskandar.

Had loads of fun with 'em, they really tried to talk some sense into me, i was speaking rubbish all the time. And, god damn it, i farted infront of Ayun and he was so shocked and stare at me and i laughed so loudly. And then Gummy laughed too, haha! Then Gummy left around 7+ while i stayed since Ayun said he will send me home, wakwakwa! :P

Stayed till 8.15pm, then they send me till 11 floor. Never failed to say "dont think so much lah emily" from Gummy before he left, haha! Reached home, bath, texted, online.

I've decided to move on, i hope i can do it. I know you won't find another girl like me, everyone is different. Im unique in my own way, and so do you. I will never find a boy like you, seriously. Im moving on, we'll be together if what the quiz's result is true.

It takes time, thanks to all those who bothered to ask how was i, am i doing fine, giving me advices. People like Wenhui, Esther, Victoria, Aryna, Fana, Sera, Emmabel, Cammie, Gummy, Ayun, Iskandar, Farris & Mira Sherman for advices. Love you all to the max. :*

Okay la, on msn with Ayun now. Later conference with Iskandar and Ayun! Perhaps with Aryna! Okay bye.

I know very well.

i know you don't love me anymore. That's why you can not contact me for three days. I don't know why you can. Do you know that i cried last night? No, you don't know. So what if i texted you and tell you about it?

Three word : YOU DONT CARE.

Three word : I LOVE YOU.

Four word : YOU DONT LOVE ME.

i miss you

time now is 11.19am. on msn with cammie and fana right now. and its raining too. heavy rain. nice weather to sleep, haha! going for a haircut later on with fana at greenridge.

im going to work soon, but at a new place, a office girl. hopefully i'll get that job, as i really want to change my job, i don't wanna work as a hawker girl selling juices, nor do i want to sell handphones. A clerk, with a reasonable pay. 1 hour = 6.50$. Isn't it great?

brother just came back with his friend, yong chang. kinda bored right now. not gonna hug the laptop for long today. when i comes back around evening, shall go and sleeeeep till night time.

Im updating my playlist and also blogging right now. Hmm, last night was a difficult night for me. Cried while thinking of you and writting my diary. You know what? I miss you alot..

This two days seems to be that we broke up. I miss you alot, you know? :'(

Hear me out.

look at the time now. im still waiting for you to come online. i held my tears back for long enough.

i know you dont like me crying.. i know very well.. but i miss you alot bi.. :'(

alone

Finally 3 days break starting from now. I seriously miss him alot yet we are not talking.. (cries)

when im upset, i go for haircut and also 2 packets of large fries. shall go and get a haircut tomorrow, and also make myself sick.

bye.

no longer

yesterday i went online around 9.40pm. hoping you would come online. but guess what, you didn't. huzaifah called me at 2.04am, telling me that you went up to his house and told him that you fought with me.

i know its my fault, but i really didn't lied to you my dear. why are you listening to other people instead of me? must i also mia from you? must i really really off my phone and keep my laptop in my storage and don't go out at all? i didn't off my phone cause i want you to contact me. i didn't kept my laptop is because that i want to abide the promise.

last night i did abide the rules, my eyes were stucked to the bottom right corner, hoping to see your picture pop out and come online. last night, i found myself crying. it was a dream i was having..

i dreamt that you texted me, calling me dinda like how you use to. and im so happy to recieve your text. happy till i teared. and when i woke up, it was just merely a dream.

i spend my whole night by my cell phone. hoping just a text from you.

but there is nothing at all. but a lot of text from friends who claim that they care

we said we will last, but now. what with all these cold wars? as i said, im sorry..

there's still many things for us to do, are you gonna leave me?

friends leave me cause im not good enough.

are you gonna leave me for another girl cause im not good enough?

till here.

empty room

after thinking for the whole day. i know very best that i can't handle all these bullshits.
i don't like quarrells, friends want me to change, i did tried my best, im still trying.
yet you all wanted more, its so hard for me. looking at our pictures, it reminds me of the incident.

Just few years ago, i had this problem too. it led to slight depression till i nearly got disqualified for my psle taking. i hate it and i told myself to not be so emotional already.

but for now, im still holding on to the promise that i made to myself. im not gonna get myself to led to depression again. but im trying my best, do you know? do you guys know? you people never realize. never take the effort to.

just few days ago you turn your back on me. yet you called me up today and asked whether am i alright? absurd, seriously. you sounded so happily yet you didn't bothered to keep on asking am i really really okay. i will never take back my words, as i said, i appreciate you people, but you people don't.

this blog, only between me, vic, esther. words are cheap, very cheap. friends were never there, don't talk about clique members. where's tina? where's cheryl? where's vivien? where are you girls? am i there when you girls needed me? am i? even if im not, i will still try to. thru email, text, phone call, or just a simply tag on your blogsite.

and now this is what i get. no i don't expect repay or whatsoever. i need care too. you know?
my boyfriend is my pillar of strength, but that doesn't mean we won't face problems too. when i get upset, he will. and both of us is upset. what happens? yes fights.

now i got 2 things to handle. first, fieza. second, my boyfriend. why?.. *cries*

not good enough

Will stop blogging for a while. bye.

Round and round.

Okay hi. Went to SGH by dad's car, left to Bpp for dinner after that. Chance upon met cousins, and then cabbed home. Home, bath, here.

Recieved Suhaimi's text regarding our class chalet, sorry suhaimi, i went back my words on planning one. and i doubt i'll be free too, we'll see how okay dude. (y)

tomorrow's working, wednesday as well. and then thursday, off day! woo-hoo, hehe. fadhila's coming baaack, miss her dok!

for now, tomorrow is my 10 year bestfriend's birthday, hehe, yay! and also Binjun's :)
and then for the 6th, is Fadhila's arrival to singapore! (y)

i can't wait, okay. whatever, lol.

im trying, my very best to play ignorance. like what i promise my dearest fadhila ;)
i will be happy, soon.

Erasing, erased.

Okie, last night was great. Lemme elaaaaborate okie. Bahaha, hehoha. :D

Was on Msn with Gummy, Cammie & Baby! Seriously 3 of them made me laugh alot. Haha, baby is being silly. Gummy and Cammie is fighting in a funny way like they always use to, rofl!

Was on Facebook last night. Me and Izzuan was chatting on my photo comment column and cause those people who had commented on the picture before to recieve tons of notifications. Haha! And we planned to hit 200 but at the 100th comment, i got to go. Haha! ;P will continue sooon, bahaha!

And after going offline, had conference with Sri and Sera. And this 2 girl kept making me laugh despite me having a headache. And seriously, im so happy that they are with me, especially Sera. And also Sri, both of them never fail to make me laugh, hehe. And i miss them alot. Shall meeeet them up soon!! (:

Then went to watch movie with brother, we stayed up till 2.30am, and the show was god damn hilarious, haha. Enjoy watching movies with my brother, hehe. Then went to sleep straight away, was thinking whether to celebrate anot, cause Baby, Gummy, Cammie, Sri, Sera is bugging me to celebrate it, -__- Let me think yeeeeeeh?

Today, woke up around 11+. Then wash up, online, chatted with Huzai, Billy, Cammie and also Fana! (: Going to hospital later on, so shall get ready soon, appointment is 3pm dok! :D

Okay la, bye!

Its not easy.

Click on the picture and you will know how i feels. Especially the one nearest to the pendant. Okay whatever, i kind of like this picture somehow :O Haha. Okie, time now is 9.08pm. Baby is coming online ^-^

Currently on msn with Valerie Xingan. And, we both as the same taste! She got herself a malay boyfriend too, hehe same same (h5) Lol! ^-^ Same taste dok, haha. Meh meh, hehe. I love Xingan lah, ya da ya da~

Not working tomorrow again, going to Hospital with granny. Like yay, haha! Another off day, weeee~ Haha. Had a great time with my youngest brother just now. We went to bangkit to pack dinner and he was like "you love hazmi anot ah?" "sis, i love you" i was like wthhhhh, and he kept making me laugh, haha! Thanks lil bro, :)

Okay, im done posting. Bye. <:

im done.

great start out for the month of november. best birthday gift ever. thanks.. now while typing this, i can feel my tears coming out from my eyes. afterall, FRIENDS COME AND GO (:

i had fun with you. i enjoy laughing with you. i love being with you. i dont care whether can you fit my clothes, i will still wanna give it a try cus i know you need it. i try my very best to help you whenever you need help. i try my best to change into someone whom you guys wanted.

now, i got all these from you and the rest. i got no choice but to take it. started off with a hi, ending with a bye.

afterall, i tried my very best, its okay. just my luck to have a friend like you.. *cries*

Edited @ 4.51pm. :D

Okay, im seriously alright. Thanks for those who really cared and kept asking whether am i okay. For now, i just wanna focus on my boyfriend, sisters. Nothing else. Cause like what Vict said, friends who treats me like dust, can jolly well fuck off. 'Cause i don't deserve friends with two-sided face..

I hope what she said was true, well, its kinda proven right already. Its okay!! :) Im still meeeee yeeeeap, hehe. The happy emily i suppose? Or mayber the happiest? Haha k la whatever.

Thanks Baby for being there for me just now, maybe its true that i am not needed already.

Thanks Victoria Sist, Babyvirako Sist, XiaoZhu Xingan, Meiling CM. <:

Haha, will post later on maybeeeeeeeeee, catch up with y'all later on. baibai.